Dream or real

Music: “Virtuoso #3” by Joe Pass, “Way Out West” by Sonny Rollins
Mood: offbeat ("Offbeat" from "Virtuoso #3")

In a dream, anything can happen in any way and you won’t be wondering why or how. There, anything is doable... fun, fun, fun! Things can go wrong, too; it’s a nightmare! But don’t worry, it’s a dream. Open your eyes, it’s gone… No, wait. Is it really gone? When you wake up, you still "feel" the fear, don’t you. Actually, you feel it much stronger than in the dream.
In a dream, you have fun, fear, happiness, sorrow, joy, pain… You experience it as in real… But, do you really, actually feel it?
I won’t be actually hurt in my dream, and that’s a relief. But when I wake up from the dream, I will still remember how it was and feel the pain. I also can have a lot of joy and happiness in my dream. But I don’t think I “feel” it. I think I’m only experiencing it in a rather neutral way. When I wake up, I will “feel” it much more intensely… OK, I’d be feeling sorry too that it was only a dream…
Oh, I lost the thread of my story here, I’m afraid. I just wanted to say that I only wish if it were all really happening… I’d rather FEEL it as reality than just experiencing it as a picture book story. -- Even if it is painful.

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INSPIRATION

You say anything is possible
I say I believe what you believe
If you say it I'd say it's true
I dream and in my dreams I think of you
So real it's like the way I turn to you
When I awake I want to see you there all the time

I need your inspiration
I need your guiding light
This is my invitation
Come on and be my world tonight

There's a place where everything is beautiful
Love rules and everything is do-able
But that world seems such a vision away

I'd give up everything I ever had
And walk away, leave this crazy life behind
If I knew that you would be there right by my side

I would run through the jungle
I would scream in the Vatican
I would laugh my resignation
I would dance naked in the sand under moonlight

Every brick and every stone and shingle laid
Every dream and every little plan we make
We'll build a world
More beautiful than anyone has ever made

(from "7 Deadly Zens" by Tommy Shaw)

More smile

Music: "Keb' Mo'", by Keb' Mo'
Mood: "Every Morning" from "Keb' Mo'"
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Matt,
your question is now going to be answered:


Every Morning by Kevin Moore

Every mornin', every evenin', every day I, I think of you
The way you love me, through and through
When I'm with you, it feels like heaven
You're an angel, holdin' me
Your sweet, sweet lovin', it sets me free
And in my wildest, imagination,
I could never, imagine you
Lovin' me as much as, as I do you
And it may be winter, it may be fall
I might have plenty, or nothin' at all
But baby I'll be there, whenever you call, ever you call
'Cause every mornin', and every evenin', every day I, I think of you
The way you love me, through and through
The way you love me, through and through

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Kym.'s happiest smile for T.

Smile

Music: “Solo Para Ti” by Ottmar Liebert + Luna Negra
Mood: “Arrow w/o Destination” from “Solo Para Ti”

Good friend Sjaak said to me to cheer me up:
“There are people who find their (emotional) life too flat; they would rather have more (especially) highs and lows. But you would not have to complain about this!”

Thank you, Sjaak.
I know. I’m happy that I can feel what I feel now.

Smile - the best I can give

Waiting 4 Stars 2 Fall

Music: “Edge of Forever” by Lynyrd Skynyrd, “Hejira” by Joni Mitchell, “Re-foc” by Rodrigo y Gabriela, “Nouveau Flamenco” by OL
Mood: “Waiting 4 Stars 2 Fall” from “Nouveau Flamenco”

I’m a bit - eh, how do you call it – “hard-to-learn”, aren’t I… I should know better by now, I’d think.
It was raining + hailing in the daytime, now it cleared up. I’ve been “waiting 4 stars 2 fall” for some time… but haven’t seen any. Aren’t there any other ways to make a wish?

Jochie

Jochie, my first cat, died on the night of February 18, 1997. He had a liver problem, and was very, very ill. He started eating less sometime in January, got skinnier every day. We’d been to the vet several times, tried to give him different food and medicines. But nothing helped. And then, the day came that he was so ill that we had to have him put to sleep. Officially it is not allowed to bury your dead pet in your garden, but the vet said then it should be alright if we’d make it as deep as 1 meter. I couldn’t leave him at the vet’s, knowing that then he would be put in a garbage bag to be taken away for “destruction”. So we buried him here in the garden. A few months later, a friend of mine made this stone for me (or, of course, for Jochie).

Jochie was very special to me. In the summer of 1983, I was here only for half a year or so, couldn’t speak the language very well yet, was often alone at home and had not much to do. A friend came one day with a kitten to cheer me up. He said that the kitten was the ugliest of the nest of 6 (he had heard that I had a very “strange” taste) and that I could have other one if I wanted. No way! It was such a tiny, sweet, beautiful kitten!

Now I have my Gang. These 3 mean very much to me, I love them so. But I miss Jochie too. Sometimes I even see him coming into the room.

The grave looks a bit neglected (just as the rest of my garden). I’m going to clean it one of coming days… See, there is a lot of moss here too.

Jochie - RIP

Moss

It was such a nice day today! Although the weather was real Dutch – storming, raining, hailing, snowing - , all the people I saw were very friendly. Well, alright, it was Valentine’s Day, perhaps that’s why.

I finally made an appointment at the garage for a periodic check-up of my car. It actually must be done before 16th or I risk a few hundred dollar fine (don’t know exactly how much). OK, I’m late. I have a kind of phobia for calling on the phone, that’s why I always postpone (important) calls till it really, seriously, definitely can’t wait anymore. Anyway, I called the garage this morning, the gentleman on the phone was very kind (one of the today’s friendly people) to put me on Wednesday the 16th. So, one thing is done. Now the next…
I have to - well, don't have to but I think I should - wash my car tomorrow. I don’t drive often, seldom wash the car. Now I see that even moss is growing on my car!!! =-0 It’s so embarrassing. BTW, my ex-boss (I worked in a Dutch company many years ago) had a very expensive BMW (he once had a custom made cabriolet too); the car was always dirty and muddy and messy… but somehow it was cool that way. Hm, alright, it’s a completely different story from that of my humble VW Polo Fox; in this case, it’s not cool at all, it’s just dirty and embarrassing.
Hope it’s going to be a good weather tomorrow.


Update: Here you see what I'm talking about...

Moss growing on my car

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Happy Saint Valentine's Day!!
:-)))))
Kym.

Parliamentary debate

Read in the paper:
The biggest politic party in Dutch Parliament asks the Ministers of Economy and Justice, and the minister of state for Culture, what they are going to do about the usurious price of the tickets to the U2 concert on July 13th.

I love this country!

…Okay, it’s about black market – a serious matter.

“Message of love is a message of gold”

Music: “Transformation” by El, “Nouveau Flamenco” by Ottmar Liebert
Mood: singing and dancing

I’ve been wondering…. And finally I thought: Why not?
Okay, I know that no one would understand what I mean. …Never mind, no problem. I’m a dreamer, a romanticist of a very strange kind. Anyway, I’m now in such a positive mood that I give my current life a “carte blanche”. I have NO idea what can happen tomorrow, or even in 5 minutes. Well, I will see when it is so far. In the meantime, I just do what my heart desires and what I believe is right. So, here’s a song text which made me think.

Oh, by the way, I was just reading OL’s blog and saw a post about the founder of Windham Hill label. Ha! …I had to grin ;-)… ‘Cause it’s another happy part of my memories.

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"Bring out the good side"

Your life’s the answer
To the things you wanna know
And you can get it right
When the good times roll
But when the tide gets rough and
You drift away
So you wake up
And call it a day

Oh – you’ve gone through
So many lives before
And this one
Is gonna give you more
You bring out the good side
You bring out the good side in me
Bringin’ out the good side
Oh yeah
You bring out the good side
The only thing you’ve gotta do
Is bring out the good side

When it’s hot baby
And you feel so cold
Remember the message of love
Is a message of gold

You bring out the good side
You bring out the good side in me
Bringin’ out the good side
Oh yeah
You bring out the good side
The good side in me

Oh - it’s so easy
But you don’t know until you try
It’s just a footstep away
So let love take your pride
Although you don’t know why

Just bring out the good side
You bring out the good side in me
Bringin’ out the good side
I say (oh – oh Bring out the good side)
‘t do dn do dn do dn do
(yeah – yeah Bring out the good side)
the best side of you
na na na na na na – now now now
(yeah – yeah)
Get it out
Bring out the good side
The very best side of you
The very best side of you

(From "Transformation", written by E. Martens and O. Lakeman)

Shopping Sunday

It was a very nice day today, sunny and warm. I thought it would be nice to go to downtown and take some pics of the peaceful, atmospheric old quarters of Utrecht. Normally I’d take my bike, but as it was such a beautiful weather, I decided to take Fox, my dog, for a walk.
Hm, wrong thought, as far as taking photos is concerned. It was SO crowded because of the first Sunday of the month - “shopping Sunday”. Nothing “peaceful and quiet”. So, I gave up with taking pictures, I went to see my friends instead. They have 2 very enthusiastic, energetic, playful dogs; Ole and Eva. Well, my lazy Fox had to walk almost 1 hour to get there, then played with the dogs (they are very good playmates with one another, Fox likes to play with them very much) , and again walked back home. Now he’s really tired and knocked out, snoring in his basket.

Fox + Ole


Ole

Tulips - can't wait till spring

Music: "The Journey" by Danilo Perez
Mood: delighted but sleepy

Today I saw 2 tulip shoots in the flower pot on the balcony. I was much too late to plant them this time. Fortunately it’s been rather mild till now and they seem to be doing alright. Hope they are going to bloom as beautiful as those on the photo below :-)

Baby tulip


...in a month or 2...