UGH!!!

Music: SRV, now playing “Rude Mood”

Mood: “Duh!”

In my glass: Warsteiner

I lied. 

I said it was alright but it was not.  And it is not.  It’s not alright and I do mind.  

I’m so... tired of acting cool, acting as if it’s okay, as if I’d not mind.  But how can I..., how should I let you know that? Ugh!

I want to scream and cry.  Wish I could tell the world, yell for you... wish I could. 

But instead, all I can do is to wait (for what?) - it feels like I’m dying inside.  

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One step ahead.  But it’s still such a long way to go.  ...To where?

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My other computer is finally out of the box.  I found some old photos in there :) 

I think I like working on portraits. I hope I can do some sessions soon.  

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Music now playing: “Tin Pan Alley (aka Roughest Place In Town)”

So Sad Today..., well, kind of.

Music: Playlist “Top Rated”, now playing “So Sad Today”/Thunder

Mood: mixed

In my glass: just had Sauvignon Blanc.  I might open a... Malbec or...

Things tend to happen when you’re not expecting them to.  So... don’t expect anything... but do be aware and prepared or you might miss them.

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Sometimes it’s so hard to bear.  My longings.  And then... this emptiness.

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Sooooo right.  I wish I could tell the world... and as loud as I could.  Ha!  ...Well, but no,... ‘cause I know I shouldn’t.  ‘Cause I know “you don’t like it”.

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Sweet moments... hard times.

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hm... I'm only mumbling.  

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Music now playing: “Lovin' You”/Van Zant