*Sigh*

Music: “Thunder Live”, “Thunder/Live Circuit”/ Thunder, “Truth”/Jeff Beck, “Horowitz Plays Mozart”/Vladimir Horowitz
Mood: not really high but better than the physical condition

Since Saturday, I have a severe pain in my upper back (around the left shoulder blade)… it feels like I slept wrong. But I think it’s because I’m too much on computer… that’s it. ‘Cause I also have a pain in my lower back and both elbows and my right wrist and… everywhere. Plus, I mowed the grass yesterday, and after that I was itchy everywhere and got the red, watery eyes as usual. My eyes are still a bit swollen today.

I sent e-mails to people I know if somebody would like to (or knows somebody who would like to) go to Thunder’s concert. Hm… I had only one reply, that she doesn’t know anybody. OK, it seems like I must go there on my own. I checked the fan site, saw a Dutch girl posting a topic about the concert in Amsterdam… Hm… No, I don’t know…don’t feel like knocking on the door there right now.

Hhmm… every morning I feel myself a day older… *sigh*

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Like a Satellite
(Thunder)

In the quiet of evening I start to drift away
Imagining a place where you’ll be starting off your day
I fight the distance with a picture in my head
But I don’t know when I’ll see you, I guess I’ll have to dream instead
You’re so far away

If I could be I’d be with you, even if for just one day, ’cos if

I close my eyes and dream on, I can fool myself in sound and vision
Like a satellite reaching out through the night
I could almost be touching you

And when we’re talking long distance on the phone
You know it makes me feel like I’m not so alone
The situation never causes me pain
The communication that we have is on another plane

All the waiting makes me stronger, and the time between us flies

Whenever
I close my eyes and dream on, I can fool myself in sound and vision
Like a satellite reaching out through the night
I could almost be touching you

If I could be I’d be with you, even if for just one day
Those miles between us, they just start fading away

Whenever
I close my eyes and dream on, I can fool myself in sound and vision
Like a satellite reaching out through the night
Whenever
I close my eyes and dream on, I can fool myself in sound and vision
Like a satellite reaching out through the night
I could almost be touching you
I can almost be touching you

Like a satellite, like a satellite
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witten by Luke Morley

I saw him!

Music: Thunder and Jeff Beck … again
Mood: OK, better than yesterday

“It was early in the evening/I was walking with my dog/I was thinking to myself as I watched this goofy dog/I need love…” ;)

Then, near the bridge.. I saw him! He’s kinda.. Tommy Shaw-ish… Well-uh.. he was on bike, I don’t think he even noticed me… :( But, ok, what difference would it make? Even if he had noticed me… I’m sure he’s very much “taken”.
*sigh*

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“…
Should you ever change your mind
About leaving everything we had behind
It don’t matter any place or any time
‘Cos I’ll be waiting, I’ll be waiting
I’ll be waiting…”

(from “I’ll Be Waiting”/Thunder)

Wednesday

Music: “Thunder Live”, “Thunder/Live Circuit” by Thunder, “Truth” by Jeff Beck
Mood: seriously tired

Yesterday I was thinking like: I’d really love to sleep in once. No worries about walking Fox, the deadline, grocery shopping... No alarm clocks…. Hm… OK, I slept in today – I was super, mega, giga late!!!. I can remember, yes, that I turned off one of the 4 alarm clocks… OMG!!! It’s Wednesday, my stress day, oooooohhhh the deadline!!! Plus, this Wednesday especially is a heavy Wednesday because it’s right after the 3rd Tuesday of September (= the opening day of the Dutch Parliament). Oh, no… I’ve got so much to read and translate…!!!

But-uh.. what can I do? I couldn’t set the time back… so I sent an e-mail to my editors that I was late – sorry. Nnnnnngggggrrrrr.. I hate Wednesday!!!!

Should I.. would I.. I would.. think I will.. I will... hmmm

Music: play list 180905: Jaco Pastorius, OL, Thunder, Manu Chao
Mood: ok… but missing something

Am still trying to continue my projects… “1-a-week”. Today I finally cleared the green mass of tamarisk tree; I cut all the small twigs off and put them in the organic waste container. I kept bigger twigs and trunks for the fireplace. I also paid all the bills ( :( ), and what is more important that I opened the BLUE ENVELOPES (=post from the tax office!). I had received a reminder (not to pay fortunately, but to do declaration) just a couple of days before I left for BC. I really had no time to handle it at that time, so I just faxed it to my accountant. Since I came home I received 3 more blue envelopes, which I kept unopened… cause I was afraid that SOMETHING VERY SCARY was to be found there. It’s so stupid actually, yes I know! The longer I wait, the worse it gets… But today I opened them at last and found out that there’s nothing to worry about… yet. I’m going to call my accountant tomorrow anyway… but for now, everything seems to be alright.

Oh, btw, Thunder is coming to Amsterdam in December!! YAY!!!! But-uh… I don’t dare to go to the concert… alone. Yes, I went to all the way to NYC on my own to visit OL’s concerts. But I just wouldn’t dare to go to Amsterdam… WHY???!! Alright, here are my reasons (or excuses) not to go…
1) It’s on Wednesday night = I have to work.
2) I don’t like going to a concert alone. I have done that only twice in my life: to OL’s and to Remy Shand’s (it was in Utrecht).
3) It would be late = I have to go and come back by train.
4) I don’t know their recent songs…
5) …I just wouldn’t dare.

Oh, blimey…, but I would love to go!!! …think I will… I think..

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Lonely Weekends(Jimmy Page/John Paul Jones)

Well I’m makin’ alright (Well I’m makin’ alright)
From Monday morning till Friday night
Oh, those lonely weekends

Since you left me (since you left me)
I’m as lonesome as I can be
Oh, those lonely weekends

You said you’d be (ooh-wah) true to me (ooh-wah-wah)
You said our love (ooh-wah) would never die (ooh-wah-wah)
You said you’d be (ooh-wah) true to me (ooh-wah-wah)
But baby, you didn’t even try

Well I’m makin’ alright (Well I’m makin’ alright)
From Monday morning till Friday night
Oh, those lonely weekends

You said you’d be (ooh-wah) grue to me (ooh-wah-wah)
You said our love (ooh-wah) would never die (ooh-wah-wah)
You said you’d be (ooh-wah) true to me (ooh-wah-wah)
But baby, you didn’t even try

Well I’m makin’ alright (Well I’m makin’ alright)
From Monday morning till Friday night
Oh, those lonely weekends
Oh, those lonely weekends
Oh, those lonely weekends…
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written by Charlie Rich

Back to the start

Music: Thunder, Remy Shand, Lynyrd Skynyrd, OL, Jeff Beck (and more...)
Mood: head banging

Yay! TGIF, it's weekend finally!! I've been working SO hard lately.

…OK, after Jeff Beck, it’s been a Thunder week. I always love(d) the blues based British rock… I read on the internet that “She’s So Fine” had been “flopped” in the US. Naaaa, one of my most faves!!! Ts ts ts, the Americans don’t know what they are missing! Anyway, I’m now back in my dream world with Thunder AND my other faves, of course, like Lynyrd Skynyrd, OL, Jeff Beck… – ok, I admit.. it might seem to be a bit odd combination. What the OL’s albums are concerned, my most faves this week are “Nouveau Flamenco” and “Opium” – looks like I’m back to where I started.

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Love Walked In
(Thunder)

So tired of waiting I walked an empty land
I was looking for something to help me understand
But bad luck kept turning my dreams into sand

I didn’t want pity, I had my share of friends
I wanted somebody more special than the rest
I was aching inside like I was approaching the end

Just about that moment the timing was so right
You appeared like a vision sent down to my life
I thought I was dreaming when I saw you that night

That’s when love walked in through my door
That familiar feeling I had once before
Love walked in through my door, and it felt so strange

It’s hard to remember being on my own
That kind of loving makes a hard man lose control
But I sleep so much better now I’m not alone

So promise me baby you’re always gonna stay
I don‘t think I could take it seeing you walk away
You don’t need to doubt it, I remember that day

That’s when love walked in through my door
I found just what I wanted but I got so much more
Love walked in through my door, and it felt so strange
Like a long lost friend that hadn’t changed, giving me hope again

Love walked in, love walked in, love

Just about that moment the timing was so right
You appeared like a vision sent down to my life
I thought I was dreaming, when I saw you that night

That’s when love walked in through my door
That familiar feeling I had once before
Love walked in through my door
Love walked in through my door
That familiar feeling I had once before
Love walked in through my door, and it felt so strange
Like a long lost friend that hadn’t changed, giving me hope again
Love walked in, love walked in, love, love walked in, love walked in

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(written by L. Morley)

Got an idea...

Music: “Thunder Live” by Thunder
Mood: slightly bored but not too bad

I have a big red umbrella (maybe it’s not the right colour), a black shirt, black Levi’s (would they be ok?? I have no dress…). Hopefully it’s raining when I take a train next time… Oops, I don’t have the film star kind of features, though... um… but what are they exactly?

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I’ve seen Thunder twice - two nights in a row. Great rock band with guts and xxxxx!

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She’s So Fine
(Thunder)

It was early in the evening, I was waiting for a train
I was thinking to myself as I watched the pouring rain
I need love, but I don’t know where to get it
Then underneath this big umbrella she walked in the waiting room
I just had to tell her though it might have been too soon
I need love and I think I might have found it
She was some kind of priestess with a black dress on
With her film star kind of features, she really turned me on
And if it takes until forever and a day, I’ve gotta make that woman mine
If I don’t tell her then I’ll wish my life away, she’s so fine, she’s so fine

I said don’t misunderstand me, I didn’t mean to make you blush
But when I got this feeling, I knew I had to rush
I need love, and you know I want to give it
I’ve been waiting for a lifetime for a woman like you
I know I’m walking on a fine line, but I’ve got to see it through
If I should pass away tonight while I’m asleep
At least I’ll know I spoke my mind
I’m being driven by some other force that won’t be denied, no!

She’s so fine
I’ve been waiting for a lifetime for a woman like you
I know I’m walking on a fine line, but I’ve got to see it through, through
YES!
She’s so fine, she’s so fine, she’s so fine
Ooh, I took one look at you baby, babe it feels so good inside
That’s right, oh baby, that’s right
She’s so fine, makes me feel good…
Now she’s all mine…

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written by Morley/Taylor

Owner of a...

Music: my play list No. 4 (OL, Jeff Beck, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Eric Clapton and the Yardbirds, Homesick and the Backstabbers, Gary Moore, Manu Chao, Rolling Stones and more)
Mood: fine

He’s got a lonely heart. She’s got a broken heart. It would be very hard for these two to make each other (and himself/herself) happy - especially when he or she (or both of them) is looking at the world only through his/her lonely/broken heart. It just would not work.

By the way, if I had to choose, I’d rather be broken-hearted than lonely-hearted…

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Owner of a Lonely Heart
(Yes)

Move yourself
You always live your life
Never thinking of the future
Prove yourself
You are the move you make
Take your chances win or loser

See yourself
You are the steps you take
You and you – and that’s the only way

Shake – shake yourself
You’re every move you make
So the story goes

Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Much better than – a
Owner of a broken heart
Owner of a lonely heart

Say – you don’t want to chance it
You’ve been hurt so before

Watch it now
The eagle in the sky
How he dancin’ one and only
You – lose yourself
No not for pity’s sake
There’s no real reason to be lonely
Be yourself
Give your free will a chance
You’ve got to want to succeed

Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Much better than – a
Owner of a broken heart
Owner of a lonely heart

Owner of a lonely heart

After my own decision
They confused me so – owner of a lonely heart
My love said never question your will at all
In the end you’ve got to go
Look before you leap – owner of a lonely heart
And don’t you hesitate at all – no no

Owner of a lonely heart
Owner of a lonely heart
Much better than – a
Owner of a broken heart
Owner of a lonely heart

Owner of a lonely heart

Sooner or later each conclusion
Will decide the lonely heart - owner of a lonely heart
It will excite it will delight
It will give a better start – owner of a lonely heart

Don’t deceive your free will at all
Don’t deceive your free will at all – owner of a lonely heart
Don’t deceive your free will at all
Just receive it

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written by Rabin/Anderson/Squire/Horn

Footsteps

Music: Playlist No.4 (Lynyrd Skynyrd, OL, Damn Yankees, Jeff Beck, Manu Chao, Suzi Quatro etc.)
Mood: tired

I was SO sleepy this afternoon that I almost fell asleep on computer while I was supposed to be working.. and I thought: I’m goint to lie down for half an hour… I set the alarm clocks (4!!), lied down, closed my eyes… then I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Hm.. I’ve had this once before, I remember. Anyway, I was thinking like: did I leave the door open? Who can it be? … But I was too sleepy and lazy to get up and go have a look. Suddenly I felt somebody was in the room. It was “he”, came to sit down on the foot side of my bed. …It was so REAL…. Only I couldn’t see his face… he was – uh – faceless. I wasn’t scared or afraid.. just wondering what he was doing there in my room. It was a kind of calming too… I thought I heard his voice and felt his warmth in the room… but then I realized that I must be dreaming… I tried and tried to open my eyes.. When I finally could, he was, well of course, gone. I looked the clock – I was “away” only for 7 minutes. It felt much, much longer… like 1 hour at least.

Hmmm.. it was 2 hours later when I woke up… aaaarrrrrggggghhhhh…I really couldn’t afford that… there’s still much too much to be done…

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Hello It’s Me
(Todd Rundgren)

Hello, it’s me, I’ve thought about us for a long, long time
Maybe I think too much but something’s wrong
There’s something here that doesn’t last too long.
Maybe I shouldn’t think of you as mine.
Seeing you, or seeing anything as much as I do you,
I take for granted that you’re always there,
I take for granted that you just don’t care.
Sometimes I can’t help seeing all the way through.

It’s important to me
That you know you are free
Cause I never want to make you change for me
Think of me, you know that I’d be with you if I could
I’ll come around to see you once in a while
Or if I ever need a reason to smile and spend the night if you think I should

It’s important to me
That you know you are free
Cause I never want to make you change for me
Think of me you know that I’d be with you if I could
I’ll come around to see you once in a while
Or if I ever need a reason to smile and spend the night if you think I should
Think of me… think of me… think of me

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Oh boy... Who cares!

Music: bluesy and heavy stuff
Mood: OK


It might look very, very, VERY stupid… I wear the headphones, holding my glass of wine high, singing and swinging to the music my comp is playing… IT FEELS GOOD, though!!
On this track “Let Me Love You”, Jeff (Beck) is singing a few lines, too!!

Kisses,
Kym.


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Let Me Love You
(Rod Stewart and Jeff Beck Group)

Over here!
Let me love you baby,
You’re drivin’ my poor heart crazy.
Let me love you baby,
You’re drivin’ my poor heart crazy
When I’m with you woman,
My whole life seems so hazy.

Ah, don’t you know that.
[Jeff] Baby when you walk, you shake just like a willow tree.
Ah, yes you do darling,
Every time I see ya’ Oh!
[Jeff] Baby when you walk you know what, you shake just like a willow tree.
No, I know, I know, I know.
[Jeff] Oo-eee baby, you sure look so good to me.

Come on babe… Yes I know… Yeah

Baby when you walk,
You shake like a willow tree.
(You oughta know that by now)
Baby when you walk,
You shake like a willow tree.
And Oo-eee baby, you sure look so good to me.

(Easy with this one)
Let me love you baby, love you baby
No, I know, I know.
Let me love you baby,
Ah you, let me love you… What you got.
Let me love you baby, love you baby
Any old way you choose it,
I don’t mind what time you call me,
Ah, ah, yeah
You’re drivin’ my poor heart crazy
Let me love you baby, love you baby,
Early in the morning time,
Later in the evening,
Let me love you baby,
You’re drivin’ my poor heart [breath] … crazy.

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(by J. Rod)

Strange week

Music: “Eric Clapton and the Yardbirds > Greatest hits” and more.
Mood: “Constipated Duck” (by Jeff Beck) – LOL… my fav expression of the week!!!

Saw my ex in-laws today… I went together with them to the farewell party of a greengrocer who retired as of today. …Kinda funny occasion to have a “date” with your ex in-laws… hahaha. Well, I still see them regularly although this was the first time since I came back from BC. I have quite good contact with the whole family… except for my ex-himself – strangely. Anyway, I finally got rid of the DHL package for R.

…It’s been a sort of confusing week... a couple of unexpected things happened … I’ve been busy, too… with both my work and my social life. I wonder how all the planets are positioned.

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Lucille
(Frank Zappa)

Lucille
Has messed my mind up
But I still love her
Lucille
Has messed my mind up
But I still love her
Lucille
Has messed up my mind up
But I still need her
You know I need her

Whatcha tryna doota me
Lucille?
Whatcha tryna doota me
Lucille?
Whatcha tryna doota me
Lucille?
You got me goin’ outa my mind

Lucille
Has tore my heart up
But I still love her
I really love her
Lucille
Has tore my heart up
But I still need her
You know I need her

She treats me like my heart
Is made of stone
She runs around
And leaves me home
All alone
She doesn’t answer
When I call her on the phone
She messed up my mind
I’m crying alla the time
Lucille
Has messed my mind up

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Training dogs

Music: at random play on my computer… now it’s “Bulería de Rojo”!! … oh , I love this!
Mood : a bit confused but alright… sleepy, though.

Went to see my friends last night, had a great time with them.
They have 2 dogs and these dogs are always so extremely glad and enthusiastic when they see me… especially Ole, the one I took care of for 3 weeks when he was still 8 week old puppy. I like these dogs a lot and it’s nice to see them so… “happy”… but it also causes trouble sometimes…. You know, they jump on you, scratch on you…. They do that to other people too, and not everyone likes that…. So I gave my friends a very good advice… it’s a very well-known method to train dogs, to get rid of a bad behaviour. JUST IGNORE THEM. AS IF THEY ARE NOT THERE. ‘Cause it’s the biggest, the most severe punishment for dogs: to be ignored. And yes, it worked immediately.

Hmmmm, okay, it’s easy to talk about someone else’s dog… if my Fox does the same…


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I Want To Be Evil
(Bill Wyman’s Rhythm Kings)

I wanna be evil, I wanna spit tacks
I wanna be evil, and cheat at jacks
I wanna be wicked, I wanna tell lies
I wanna be mean and throw mud pies

I wanna wake up in the morning
With that dark brown taste
I wanna see some dissipation
In my face

I wanna be evil, I wanna be mad
But more than that I wanna be bad

I wanna be evil and trump an ace
Just to see my partner’s face
I wanna be nasty, I wanna be cruel
I wanna be daring, I wanna shoot pool

And in the theatre
I wanna change my seat
Just so I can step on
Everybody’s feet

I wanna be evil, I wanna hurt flies
I wanna sing songs like the guy who cries
I wanna be horrid, I wanna drink booze
And whatever I’ve got I’m eager to lose

I wanna be evil, little evil me
Just as mean and evil as I can be

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(written by Judson/Taylor)