Sideways

Music: my play list with Lyn. Skyn. Thunder, OL, Suzi Quatro and more.
Mood: …was helpless… now getting better
In my glass: Italian red

This simple blog of mine is now really one and only my diary (well, next to my “visual diary” Flickr) but I just don’t have enough time to update it every day. I have quite a few things to write about but… hmm….

For now, just for now, I think I should post this song.

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The song of the week: “Sideways” by Citizen Cope (by courtesy of RascalM).
I hope I can take a photo to this song some day….

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Sideways
(Citizen Cope)

You know it ain’t easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There’s no words to describe it
In French or in English
Well, diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I’m telling you these feelings won’t go away
They’ve been knockin’ me sideways
They’ve been knockin’ me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won’t go away
They’ve been knockin’ me sideways
I keep think in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won’t go away
It ain’t easy
For these thoughts that she leave me
There’s no words to describe it in French or in English
Diamonds they fade
Flowers they bloom
I’m telling you
These feelings won’t go away
They’ve been knocking me sideways
They been knocking me out babe
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won’t go away
These feelings won’t go away
…..

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(written by Clarence Greenwood)

All of a sudden… it’s summer

Music: “Whole Lotta Love”/Hayseed Dixie
Mood: anxious

It’s suddenly so, so hot! I was like 15C a few days ago but today it’s above 25C! I have had not time to adjust myself to this summery temperature. Fox is having a hard time, too; he’s moving from one place to another to find a cooler spot. The cats are not too active; they sleep the whole day as if they’re trying not to make any move.

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This Hayseed Dixie – just so cool! It’s a tip from RascalM. I never liked country or bluegrass this much before. I think this band is a good start for me to get to know that music genre. They play all those (hard) rock numbers in bluegrass style and it sounds so… COOL! Well, yes, I admit to say it’s kinda funny too but most of all… amazing. “Whole Lotta Love” (yes, a Zeppelin song!) is one of the coolest!!

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I went to downtown yesterday to see an old friend, L. He used to play in a band with R. Oh, it was sooooooo nice to see him again after 15 long years! We’ve been on msn recently – I had found his account address in one of his old e-mails. E-mails and msn are such great way to keep contact with each other and I like it. But of course, seeing and talking face to face is much nicer.

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Am very tired and sleepy. I go to bed earlier these last few days... but it doesn't seem to make any difference. I'm even more sleepy. OK, I need some time to get used to it, I guess.

Itch

Music: I hum along the music that my PC plays at random.
Mood: need to be reset
In my glass: Italian red again but this time Barbera d’Asti

I sometimes have this… I feel itchy so I scratch. But then it’s not there where itches. I just can’t find that itchy spot. Or actually, it’s there but it feels like it’s somewhere very deep under my skin and scratching the surface doesn’t help. Hmmm.. that’s how I feel at the moment. I have to do something, I want to do something but don’t know what. Um, no, it’s not true; I do know what but I don’t know how. That’s more like it. Well, my simple answer for this right now is: just start where I can. Yeah, I know.. I know.

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Read in the paper today about phobia for driving. WOW!! Oh thank you God whoever you are!! I was so glad to know that I was not the only one. There’s even a therapy for it! It’s an officially recognized phobia. Another WOW! I think I know now where my phobia comes from…. And my other phobias (??is this the plural form of phobia??) as well. Anyway, it’s a relief. Now I don’t have to feel myself so hopeless and worthless. I can always go to see a doctor when it gets really bad. Oh, yeah, reading all those papers is a part of my work and I’m not always really enjoying it.. but it can be very useful sometimes.

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I went to bed *early* last night. I crawled into bed at about 2:30 (it’s VERY early to me!), read one chapter of Harry Potter and turned off the light, I think it was around 3:15. But the problem is... going to bed earlier doesn’t mean getting up earlier too. Oh my, I have slept sooooooo long! It was almost 1 o’clock when Ponta woke me up.

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I usually don’t work on Mondays although I often feel I should. BUT, heheheehee, it’s a national holiday (Whit Monday) tomorrow and that makes it easier for me. I want to mow tomorrow, and try to cut back – get rid of the bamboo in my backyard. A bamboo flowers once in 100 years (one same sort bamboo at the same time all over the world) and then it dies. This one flowered last year (I saw only a few months ago that it had flowered) and is now dead. Such a strange plant, isn’t it?

All over again...

Music: The Amboy Dukes (“The Amboy Dukes”) and more.
Mood: upwards
In my glass: Italian red (Nero D’Avola Sicilia)

I was out in my garden, weeding and sweeping. It was sunny but somehow a bit dark… “hm, strange”, I thought. After that, I vacuum cleaned the living room, hung up the laundry, walked Fox. Then I met my former boss in a hotel lobby. He was complaining that chairs were too small. I said to him that it was a Japanese hotel and everything was “Japanese sized”. After the meeting I rushed home to let Fox out again. I was very tired and hungry, and thought: “Gees, I still have work to do!”.
…Then I woke up. It was 1 in the afternoon already. I remembered that I had stopped the alarms at 10. @$#&*!!%$#&!! Well, ok… because it was after 6 (again!) when I went to bed last night (sorry.. morning) , it’s only natural that I needed those 3 more hours. BUT! I was so tired already in my dream and now I have to do all the housework all over again! SH**!!!


Yes, I worked in my garden (just as I did in my dream). I liked it, it was nice to be outside after those rainy days. But I also have to say that it makes me feel despondent because it seems endless; there are so, so many weeds and they are everywhere. After almost 3 hours weeding I don’t see much difference. OK, OK, I know, I know.. I should do it everyday.

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It was a nice day; sunny and warm. Well, not very warm but much warmer than the past weeks. Hopefully this nice weather is now to stay. We all need a bit of sunshine.

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A friend called yesterday at 5 that he had two free tickets for me to Lucie Silvas' concert in Amsterdam. Only, the concert was to begin in 3 hours! I don’t watch TV, don’t listen to the radio and I don’t know who this Lucie was. I did a quick research on the internet and found out that she was a young “rockin’” lady. Alright, now I need to find somebody to go with me. I called 6 people (one of them lives in Italy so he wouldn’t count – ok, it makes 5 then) but nobody could. It’s not too far, maybe only half an hour by train…shall I go alone? Hmmmmm… think, think, THINK! *Big sigh* I just didn’t dare to go alone. And now I feel very, very stupid about that – so stupid and childish of me. I think I’ll have to train myself to go out on my own.

BTW, this friend of mine who called was working on backstage (I think). I haven’t seen him for about 15 years now… it would have been very nice to see him again. See, because I’m such silly coward cow, I missed the chance!

...There's another thing...

Music: "Sister Havana"/Urge Overkill
Mood: tired and sleepy
in my glass: (there was) Italian white (Grillo di Sicilia)

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…there’s another thing…

with this new PC monitor I see more lines on my face.. yes, more lines and more clearly… hm..... maybe I don’t like it either..

*sigh*