42 days

Music: "Skynyrd's First" by Lynyrd Skynyrd, "Caliente" by Willie and Lobo
Mood: "Comin' Home" (from "Skynyrd's First")

...another 42 days to go... :)

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I Love You

I want you
I need you
Cause I love you

I, I, I, I love you
Where shall we go
What shall we do
Cause I love you

I, I, I, I love you
Do do do do do do......

I love you

(by Steve Miller)


...booked...

SPRING!!!

Music: "Hejira" by Joni Mitchell, "Something/Anything?" by Tod Rundgren
Mood: Fine

It’s finally SPRING! The sun is smiling so warm and bright, the wind feels much milder than a few weeks ago. …And I…I feel fine now. Since T. has gone back home, I kept saying to myself: I can handle it, I’m doing alright. But, NO!! It’s so hard… This past Friday, I cried and cried… and then fell asleep. Oh, gosh, then I slept and slept… as if I had not slept for 100 years… Now that I just have admitted that I’m NOT doing alright, that I miss him so much, I feel somehow relieved and released. I mean, I’m not that strong, y’know. …I thought I was, but I’m not. But OK, as long as the Sun shines, he’s there… my Sunshine. I close my eyes and turn towards the Sun to feel the warmth. My Sunshine Prince.
Hm, looks like I need a distraction… am maybe going to check the flight ticket info on the internet… :):):):):)

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Dandelion

Prince or pauper, beggar man or king
Play the game with ev’ry flow’r you bring
Dandelion don’t tell no lies
Dandelion will make you wise
Tell me if she laughs or cries
Blow away dandelion

One o’clock, two o’clock, three o’clock four o’clock , five
Dandelions don’t care about the time
Dandelions don’t tell no lies
Dandelions will make you wise
Tell me if she laughs or cries
Blow away dandelion…

So you’re older now it’s just the same
You can play the dandelion game
When you’ve finished with your childlike prayers
Well, you know you should wear it

Tinker, tailor, soldier, sailor’s life
Rich man, poor man, beautiful doctor’s wife
Dandelions don’t tell no lies
Dandelions will make you wise
Tell me if she laughs or cries
Blow away dandelion…

Little girls and boys come out to play
Bring your dandelions to blow away
Dandelions don’t tell no lies
Dandelions will make you wise
Tell me if she laughs or cries
Blow away dandelions…

(written by Mick Jagger and Keith Richard)

Dandelion

Something I always wanted to do...

Music: Various tunes at random order – at this very moment: “Bulería de Rojo”/OL + LN
Mood: down + hurt, slowly recovering

:D He left a comment on an earlier post… I presume he does not mind revealing his name now… So, here’s what I always wanted to do…

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:):):):):)

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Who’s Crying Now

It’s been a mystery and still they try to see
Why somethin’ good can hurt so bad
Caught on a one-way street, the taste of bittersweet
Love will survive somehow, some way

One love feeds the fire
One heart burns desire
I wonder, who’s cryin’ now
Two hearts born to run
Who’ll be the lonely one
I wonder, who’s cryin’ now

So many stormy nights, so many wrongs or rights
Neither could change their headstrong ways
And in a lover’s rage, they tore another page
The fightin’ is worth the love they save

Only so many tears you can cry
‘Til the heartache is over
And now you can say your love
Will never die
Whoa, oh

(by Journey)

Alone again

Music: various tunes at random play – at this very moment: “MISS YOU”/Rolling Stones
Mood: alone

2 weeks of dreaming are now over. My happiest, sunniest, warmest and brightest 2 weeks… yet the shortest 2 weeks. And in these very short 2 weeks, I got so used to him being there with me. Now he's gone and this house feels so empty and cold.
A. called tonight to check if I was doing alright. She said I was always welcome if I needed some distraction and comfort. And my dear fellow fanmencos are so nice to send me kind emails… I really appreciate it. Thank you all.

Edit:
I was just wondering.. how long it will take me this time to get used to being alone again… The last time it took me almost 3 years…


T. on my bike, me on the back



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While There’s Still Time

How can I sleep tonight
When I know that tomorrow I’ll be miles away
And how can I leave if I know
When I kiss you goodbye
Baby you’ll cry

Where do I find the words
To convince you that there’s a secret part of me
That dies everytime I must pack up
And walk out the door
When I’m wanting you more

So while there’s still time
Know that I love you
Baby please hold me tight
Girl while there’s still time

If I could stop the dawn
Make the moon and the stars shine on forever more
And never again have to say
How much I’m missing you
But what can I do

So while there’s still time
Say that you love me
Baby please hold me tight
Girl while there’s still time

If I should go there’s a chance that I could lose
The love of my life
Baby please don’t make me choose
Believe me, trust me and let me inside

And while there’s still time
Forget about tomorrow
Baby please let’s not fight
Not while there’s still time

(from “Brave New World”/Styx, written by Dennis DeYoung)