I love you because....

Music: SRV, right now “Change It”

Mood: “bucking up” slowly but steadily

In my glass: Sauvignon Blanc/Semillón (Chile)

Lazy day.... ah, it must be Friday... :P

I should have worked instead of having a lazy day. Ach.... I need to clear and empty my head before this working weekend. I have a translation job for this weekend... finally something else than my regular, weekly news stories! Yay! Hm, no, I’m not feeling like working. But each and every cent and euro is very welcome right now! Besides, this job is, as I said, much more fun to do than newspaper articles. So, no, I won’t complain..... no.. no.

Yesterday I had my hair dyed; yep, it’s that time again... I was all grey! It was nice weather and I decided to walk to town.. and to the salon, of course. It takes about 40 mins.

On my way, I noticed I was humming this old song... “I love you because”. It was one of my fave songs in my school days (this one was from my junior-high days), I had the record as well :)

Well, it’s in French and my knowledge of French stops at a few cooking terms so I don’t know what is all about. All I can sing along is the line “I love you because...”.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1hvXNMB6k0 (only audio)

LOL! Ya, laughing.. cos.. I liked the song (and some others of Polnareff’s) but not enough to study French later.. (I did buy a F/J dictionary, I remember). Funny if I think how I got to study Russian instead.

Music now playing: “The Sky Is Crying” by SRV

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I Love You Because

(Michel Polnareff)

I love you... because

I love you because
Cette fois j'ai envie d'autre chose
I love you because
Tu es la seule qui n'aime pas les roses

I love you because
Tu es la seule la seule la seule la seule
Oui I love you because
Tu es la seule qui ne donnes la main à personne
La seule qui m'étonne

I love you because
Toi ta rose n'est même pas éclose
I love you because
Ton silence à toi me repose

I love you because
Tu es la seule la seule la seule la seule
Oui I love you because
Tu es la seule qui ne donne ta main à personne
La seule qui m'étonne

I love you because
Tu es la seule, la seule qui n'es pas jalouse
I love you because
Tu ne veux surtout pas qu'on t'épouse

I love you because
Tu es la seule la seule la seule la seule
I love you because
Tu aimes autre chose
I love you, love you because
Tu ne m'en demandes pas la cause

I love you because
Tu n'es pas une virtuose
I love you because
Tu es si jeune si jeune si jeune si jeune
I love you because
Tu aimes autre chose

I love you, love you because
Cette fois, cette fois j'ai envie d'autre chose
[Paroles précédentes]
I love you because
Toi c'est autre chose

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written by Jean-Loup Dabadie/Michel Polnareff

(...in need of) Inspiration...

Music: Playlist Top rated, now playing “I Will Be Your Witness” by Styx

Mood: Grrrrrrrr...

In my glass: Merlot

Today’s fragrance: The Spirit of Moonflower (The Body Shop)

I promised to myself yesterday that today I would not watch the news.... Weak me, I failed :(

Natural (and man-made) disasters, wars, crimes... all those craziness. Ah, and also Knut the polar bear died suddenly.

It seems there was not any good news at all in the entire world... not one!

Hm,... OK, there must be some... right? Just one... Anybody?

Er.... hm, as far as I’m concerned... can’t think of any right now. But in my case, it’s probably I just don’t see it... I think it’s “what you see is what you feel”.

I was thinking about going for a walk and take some “happy” photos now the weather is a little friendlier than a few days ago. Er.... no, I have no inspiration and no motivation. Even surfing on Flickr made me feel down today. Usually it’s such fun and inspiring to see those photos from all over the world but today... .....I only realize how useless and worthless my photos are!

*EDIT*

Yay, one of my Flickr contact has a happy photo!! Good news, good news... The baby will arrive in June :)))

*EDIT END*

“The ghost” of R. is back in the house... I feel it around me again... that keeps telling and reminding me that I’m nothing worthy and that I don’t even exist. UGH!! But I must admit.. it’s my own fault, too. I know well myself that I’m not doing my best. This “ghost” - sometimes I think it’s me, my own self. It’s a reflection of me on him. He would not say anything, he would, ignoring me, keep his silence. That always made me feel uncertain and inferior. In the end it took over me, it became me.

Ay.... it’s getting too serious, going wrong direction... :s

Nooo, that’s not what I mean, all that “ghost” story... I just wanted to say that I’m too lazy :P and I should change that.

Ya, right, it’s definitely time to go out... go for a walk with my cam.

Tomorrow... rain or shine (it’s going to be a nice sunny day, I heard!!), inspiration or not, JUST DO IT!

:)

(...Oh, I really wish you were here, sir, to be my inspiration and guiding light....)

Music now playing: “Does It Feel Like Love” by Thunder (ha! and now while I'm editing this... "Can You Feel It" by Richie Kotzen)

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Inspiration

(Tommy Shaw)

You say anything is possible

I say I believe what you believe

If you say it I’d say it’s true

I dream and in my dreams I think of you

So real it’s like the way I turn to you

When I awake I want to see you there all the time

‘Cause I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

There’s a place where everything is beautiful

Love rules and everything is do-able

But that world seems such a vision away

I’d give up everything I ever had

And walk away, leave this crazy life behind

If I knew that you would be there right by my side

‘Cause I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

I would run through the jungle

I would scream in the Vatican

I would laugh my resignation

I would dance naked in the sand under moonlight

Every brick and every stone and shingle laid

Every dream and every little plan we make

We’ll build a world

More beautiful than anyone has ever made

I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

‘Cause I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

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written by Tommy Shaw

Тонкая Рябина/Thin rowan-tree

Music: Playlist P, right now “Like a Satellite” by Thunder

Mood: melancholic

In my glass: Languedoc

Today’s fragrance: Rosarium (Shiseido)

...Should have stayed (a little longer) in my safety-Thunder-zone...

:’(

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Тонкая Рябина

Что стоишь, качаясь,

Тонкая рябина,

Головой склоняясь

До самого тына?

А через дорогу,

За рекой широкой

Так же одиноко

Дуб стоит высокий.

Как бы мне, рябине,

К дубу перебраться,

Я б тогда не стала

Гнуться и качаться.

Тонкими ветвями

Я б к нему прижалась

И с его листами

День и ночь шепталась.

Но нельзя рябине

К дубу перебраться,

Знать, судьба такая

Век одной качаться.

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Музыка народная, слова И. Сурикова

(Can’t even think of a title. It must have been a very lazy day)

Music: Playlist P, right now “Rolling In The Deep” by Adele

Mood: ...er... what?

In my glass: Chardonnay

Ate too much again :s Or, actually, the supper tonight (chickpea and aubergine salad) wasn’t really much, I haven’t even finished the whole bowl - I still have some left for tomorrow :) - but the fact is that I’m eating the all day through while I’m not hungry :s Bad habit.

Perhaps I should stop looking for recipes for a while. Looking and reading all those recipes on the net and in the books, makes me feel like eating. My hungry eyes.

I sometimes wonder if I’m really feeling good. Or do I only think that I’m feeling good? Because I’m supposed to, I’m expected to be feeling good and happy?

Nah, better not wonder. Better think of a new project or something instead... a good and useful project like A’s and not like this silly cooking project of mine (that does not seem to work). Pfff.. but what? Don’t know yet, I’ll think about it coming days.

I wonder... how he’s doing, what he’s doing. Does he ever think of me?

Hm,.. no, don’t think so :'(

Oops... haven’t called Mom for weeks. I will next week.

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Power Cut

(Paul McCartney & Wings)

There may be a powercut

And the candles burn down low

But something inside of me

Says the bad news isn't so

I may never tell you

But baby you should know

There may be a miracle

And baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

I may never tell you

But baby you should know

There may be a miracle

And baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so

Baby I love you so ....

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written by Paul & Linda McCartney

This sleepy head....

Music: Playlist P, right now “Bombay Diner”/Jesse Cook

Mood: *sigh*

In my glass: Chardonnay

...Yes, I do remember pressing the “snooze” button a few times. But no, I didn’t wake up. Wow, I have slept for 10 hours!! Yay! Ha, after 2 nights sleeping on the sofa, the real bed was just too nice and friendly to me.. it felt really like heaven ;)

But-but-but... oh my goodness, I’m supposed to be at A’s in half an hour.... Ooops. I called A to tell her that I had overslept (she had to laugh cos it was already after 2 in the afternoon) and that I’d be there but much later. She said it was ok. ...Phew.

Pfff... I had actually very ambitious plans for this morning.... doing this and doing that and.. hm.... Next time!

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I’m trying hard to stay away as I promised (more or less).

:’(

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Music now playing: “Need Your Love So Bad”/Gary Moore

(Yet) Another lazy Friday...

Music: Playlist P, now playing “Fall At Your Feet” by Jesse Cook

Mood: er.... “bored”

In my glass: Merlot

Glad I survived my weekly deadline this week - an election week! Bleh! Why are the elections in NL always on Wednesday????? OK, there was, other than the election, not much news to translate or write about for this week’s issue, thankfully! And normally the provincial elections are not really “important” - well, they are of course important but there are not much “excitement” around them But this time it’s different. Because the result of the elections may have a huge effect on possibilities of the present minority government. So, I should cover this item, at least as a bulletin, in this week’s issue..... Grrrrrr...... waiting, waiting, waiting and waiting for some “clear” and “obvious” analyze on news programmes and sites on the net... but NO. They only keep talking and talking and all I can find is that it’s “too close to call”. Hey, Hellooooooo!!!! All I want to know is the fact at the moment of RIGHT NOW!!

I don’t mind waiting. I can wait for a looooooong time even ages... if I know when and, most of all, what I’m waiting for.

Uhm....

Anyways, last night I was soooo tired and sleepy. I wasn’t finished with my work yet this morning but I really couldn’t keep my eyes open... so I went to have a short nap on the sofa. And then, yes, no problem, after a 2 hour nap, back to work to finish the last bits.

Ya... then I should have gone to bed but alas... the bed upstairs was much too far. I crawled back to the sofa instead.

I must say... that sofa is not made for sleep... I feel stiffness and pains everywhere.

What I need is somebody who pulls (or pushes... prefer the former ;) )me into bed and pulls me out again in the morning.... and makes breakfast for me. Ya!

Oh, and-er.... who walks Fox, too, for me.

OK, enough complaint for now.

I’m having fun with gathering recipes. I love looking in the cookbooks and magazines. Yay! So happy to be back in the kitchen :)

(Well, it’s actually... er... how should I put it? ...I call it “a little change in my strategy”.)

There’s one problem... I always make too much - which means I eat too much and am gaining my weight (back) :s

Perhaps I should go out more... like for a walk.

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Music now playing: “Everybody Wants Her” by Thunder