(...in need of) Inspiration...

Music: Playlist Top rated, now playing “I Will Be Your Witness” by Styx

Mood: Grrrrrrrr...

In my glass: Merlot

Today’s fragrance: The Spirit of Moonflower (The Body Shop)

I promised to myself yesterday that today I would not watch the news.... Weak me, I failed :(

Natural (and man-made) disasters, wars, crimes... all those craziness. Ah, and also Knut the polar bear died suddenly.

It seems there was not any good news at all in the entire world... not one!

Hm,... OK, there must be some... right? Just one... Anybody?

Er.... hm, as far as I’m concerned... can’t think of any right now. But in my case, it’s probably I just don’t see it... I think it’s “what you see is what you feel”.

I was thinking about going for a walk and take some “happy” photos now the weather is a little friendlier than a few days ago. Er.... no, I have no inspiration and no motivation. Even surfing on Flickr made me feel down today. Usually it’s such fun and inspiring to see those photos from all over the world but today... .....I only realize how useless and worthless my photos are!

*EDIT*

Yay, one of my Flickr contact has a happy photo!! Good news, good news... The baby will arrive in June :)))

*EDIT END*

“The ghost” of R. is back in the house... I feel it around me again... that keeps telling and reminding me that I’m nothing worthy and that I don’t even exist. UGH!! But I must admit.. it’s my own fault, too. I know well myself that I’m not doing my best. This “ghost” - sometimes I think it’s me, my own self. It’s a reflection of me on him. He would not say anything, he would, ignoring me, keep his silence. That always made me feel uncertain and inferior. In the end it took over me, it became me.

Ay.... it’s getting too serious, going wrong direction... :s

Nooo, that’s not what I mean, all that “ghost” story... I just wanted to say that I’m too lazy :P and I should change that.

Ya, right, it’s definitely time to go out... go for a walk with my cam.

Tomorrow... rain or shine (it’s going to be a nice sunny day, I heard!!), inspiration or not, JUST DO IT!

:)

(...Oh, I really wish you were here, sir, to be my inspiration and guiding light....)

Music now playing: “Does It Feel Like Love” by Thunder (ha! and now while I'm editing this... "Can You Feel It" by Richie Kotzen)

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Inspiration

(Tommy Shaw)

You say anything is possible

I say I believe what you believe

If you say it I’d say it’s true

I dream and in my dreams I think of you

So real it’s like the way I turn to you

When I awake I want to see you there all the time

‘Cause I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

There’s a place where everything is beautiful

Love rules and everything is do-able

But that world seems such a vision away

I’d give up everything I ever had

And walk away, leave this crazy life behind

If I knew that you would be there right by my side

‘Cause I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

I would run through the jungle

I would scream in the Vatican

I would laugh my resignation

I would dance naked in the sand under moonlight

Every brick and every stone and shingle laid

Every dream and every little plan we make

We’ll build a world

More beautiful than anyone has ever made

I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

‘Cause I need your inspiration

I need your guiding light

This is my invitation

Come on and be my world tonight

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written by Tommy Shaw