The Seasons

Music: having a Lynyrd Skynyrd night, right now playing “Blame It On A Sad Song” (from “Twenty”)

Mood: lazy

In my glass: Tempranillo/Merlot

I dreamed last night/this morning that I was running and running and running... and running... in a building, from a room to another, up and down the stairs. I don’t remember why, what for/to or what from. And then I woke up very tired and kind of numb. So tired that I decided and promised to myself to have an easy, relaxed and, most of all, lazy day. Hah, I kept my word :)

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Brrrrr... it’s so COLD!! My hands are cold, feet are “icy” cold... I look pale, too! I just can’t get warm. A nice hot cup of cappuccino can’t help, either.

...But wine can :) hihihi. After the small glass of tawny port, I got a little bit colour back on my cheek :)))

Yesterday I had my first port wine experience. Tonight I tried it with dark chocolate. Ha, nice! Basically I like dry wine although I appreciate occasionally a small glass of sweet, dessert wine with... er.. dessert, yes.

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Er... wait.. yes, “the seasons”.

It’s so cold... as if it had skipped summer and turned autumn again.

Hm, that’s not good! It should not skip any season because each and every season has its meaning/function/work and it should “turn” and “come” again in this particular order. That’s the way, the law.

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I didn’t even touch my cameras today. Hm, I’m sooooo lazy.

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*Wishing*

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Song now playing “Can’t Take That Way” by Lynyrd Skynyrd, (from “The Last Rebel”)

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The Seasons

(Lynyrd Skynyrd)

When the season is turning

And my day has gone by

And to see my reflection

See it in your eyes

Know the day that’s come now has gone by

And if you look now quite closely

You feel the sun start to shine

And you know the day is longing

Longing just for you

The season that’s come now is as fresh as you

And if you look now quite closely

You feel the sun start to shine

And you know the day is longing

Longing just for you

The season that’s come now is as fresh as you

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written by Rickey Medlocke

Doors

Music: Playlist P, now playing “Open Up Your Door” by Richard Hawley

Mood: fine

In my glass: Tempranillo/Merlot (left over from yesterday. Might open a new bottle.)

Perhaps I’m supposed to be feeling sad, blue, down, miserable, hopeless. useless and worthless. Well, strangely and surprisingly, I’m feeling fine... I even dare say “very good”.

I had, of course, my “darkest hours” last night but after a short night sleep on the couch (...Fox was restless again) I feel good. OK, I might be in a state of shock, who knows, but I don’t mind at the moment.

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I’m getting to like oversized Levi’s. I have found a couple of R.‘s old pairs of Levi’s among the piles of “to mend”. First I wanted to get rid of them but... wait a sec... why not keep them and, well, I don’t know... make a skirt or something from them?

I must say - ahem, though I say that myself - it’s kinda cute, I look sweet in the big, oversized jeans :)

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My house looks a lot better now as Hans has been working on it (...poor me, poor my bank account... :’( ) But the garden looks terrible... And inside the house... oops, even worse! I really have to get rid of all those papers and junk stuff.

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It feels like all the doors are closed at the moment. And I can’t find the keys. Or do I even have the keys?

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Yep, I’m going to get another bottle... hm.. which one shall I? Heehee, a happy moment ;)

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Music now playing: “I Don't Want To Be With Nobody But You” by Stevie Salas, feat. RK

"End of the World"

....Oh no...Fox is whining.. ...and whining.

He’s so confused and... so am I.

It’s going to be another couch night for me.

I know, I don't look like worrying.

But, to be honest, I was secretly wishing for the End of the World :|

“Why does my heart go on beating?

Why do these eyes of mine cry?

Don't they know it's the end of the world.

It ended when you said goodbye.”

“What’s up, girl?”

Music: “Heartbreaker”/Free, now playing “Wishing Well”

Mood: calm.. “or how should I feel?”

In my glass: Tempranillo/Merlot

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L. & L.:

L. is like a big bro to me. L. and his wife L. have their door always open for me. I often go to them... just to say Hi... or to tell my story... or to ask for help (well, that’s the case mostly).

Like tonight, I’d walk up to them and knock on the door. He would then say as always, “hey, come inside, what’s up, girl?”. He’d put on some music and pour wine.

He’s leaving - leaving us all: his wife, his friends, his family.... and me.

He says he’s ready to go. But we aren’t ready to lose him. I am not.

Tough.

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Tonight everything seems to be just as usual - I don’t see any sign that the world is going to end... Hm, but there are some hours left today - dunno which time zone God has in His mind. :P

...Not that I believe in that story... I don’t even know what it is about,

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I was going to keep the mailbox tab closed this weekend. But then, stupid of me, I had forgotten to turn off the sync function of my phone. I heard the phone *beep* a couple of times - yep, those comments/news on FB pages :(

Right... as I say, it’s like pulling a tooth; better have that done as quickly as possible. Plus, I’d better have this Sunday as a “recovery day”.

Ach, it’s indeed like pulling a tooth. It leaves a big bloody empty hole but it will heal eventually.

Hm... btw, I still have this big empty hole - from last week Saturday - in the gums back in my mouth :s. It still kind of hurts - like, pounding and *yuck* n *ouch*!. It’s been 8 days already, how long will it have to take??? I don’t remember how it was the last time when a wisdom tooth had been pulled.

Ah, see? So, I won’t even remember it. It’s all like pulling a tooth.

(Well, I do remember, though, it was painful.)

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TS

Tommy Shaw’s new album sounds GOOD! :D

I listened to his interview on a radio show yesterday. Yeah, my Damn Yankee TS plays bluegrass.... who would have thought... But-but-but, on his “7 Deadly Zens” there was a track he had recorded with Alison Krauss... Ya, right-o.

And, a good friend of mine A. says, “sooner or later, they all discover bluegrass. That’s how it goes”.

OK,

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Free - a favourite of L.’s.

Now playing: “Love You So” from “Highway”.

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How Should I feel

(Tommy Shaw)

I’ve been thinking about your number

In the middle of the night

Trying to remember

From somewhere in my head

Without turning on the light

Everybody has an answer

To this problem that I have

Yeah it seems so easy

Tumbling from their lips

I just have to laugh

I call your name

And I am healed

I look for an answer

Tell me how should I feel

I’ve been pulling out your pictures

Now I'm pulling out my hair

And I’m looking for the answer

In the bottom of a bottle

But I can’t find it there

I call your name

And I am healed

I look for an answer

Tell me how should i feel

I’d love to ask you tonight

But your lips are sealed

If I can’t be lonely tonight

Tell me how should I feel

I would love to change the world

And I would love to change the world

And I would love to

I call your name

And I am healed

I look for an answer

Tell me how should I feel

I’d love to ask you tonight

But your lips are sealed

If I can’t be lonely tonight

Tell me how should I feel

If I could change the world tonight

If I could change the world tonight

If I could change the world tonight

If I could change the world tonight

I would love to change the world

Love to change the world

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written by Tommy Shaw/Jack Blades

(Laughing on) Judgement Day

Music: “Laughing on Judgement Day” by Thunder, right now playing “Fire To Ice”

Mood: coming around slowly

In my glass: Merlot

Hm... I was wondering.... and googled and found out that it’s tomorrow “Judgement Day”. Really? Is the world going to end tomorrow? Oh no, I have just bought enough wine for coming 2 weeks... What a waste it’s going to be then :|

Well, er... I said I had 2 big wishes.. but if the world ends tomorrow... it changes the whole story. I have only one big wish, which is... ...ahem, I’m going to handle it later tonight.

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Er... I made some notes this past week..., like...

I’m so desperate that I would have to commit a crime to be “wanted”. :’( Oh well... perhaps not because it depends “wanted by whom?”.

*SIGH*

RK sings:

“Your sweet eyes keep teasing me

How can I resist

I know that it’s gonna catch up to me when we kiss”

He must be from Venus. LOL, I haven’t read that book so I actually don’t know what it is about, the Venus and Mars thing.

My planet is, btw, Mercury, that symbolize “communication”. ...Hm. OK.

So, the world ends tomorrow, right?

Good I had a nice, relaxing Friday today. Carpenter-friend H. had a day off and I could sleep in a bit :) It felt as if I had slept for 11 long hours... if fact only 6 hours and a half. I need to catch up my beauty sleep!!!! Oh well, what would it matter now? Peeps, it’s JUDGEMENT DAY!!!

...I’m a slow runner, can’t run fast enough.

Tune now playing: “Like a Satellite” by Thunder (from “Laughing on Judgement Day”)

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Catch Up To Me

(Richie Kotzen)

Are you gonna show me this time?

Are you gonna pick me up and say you love me?

Are you just another thing for me to run from?

So I run, I’m running from love

I know that it’s gonna catch up to me so I keep moving on

I don’t wanna let love touch me the way that I know it does

I never let nobody close to me, enough to let me down

But I know that it’s gonna catch up to me somehow

You say I’m just wasting my time

But you know I’ve been wasted my whole damn life

I’d take another shot of anything to numb me

Cause I’ve got to roam and stay unknown

I know that it’s gonna catch up to me so I keep moving on

I ain’t gonna let love comfort me knowing what it’s always done

Those good times keep teasing me

How can I resist

But I know that it’s gonna catch up to me when we kiss

I know that it’s gonna catch up to me so I keep moving on

I don’t wanna let love touch me knowing everything it does

All this time your teasing me

How can I resist

I know that it’s gonna catch up to me somehow when we kiss

I know that

It’s gonna catch up to me somehow

I never let nobody close to me, close enough to let me down

Your sweet eyes keep teasing me

How can I resist

I know that it’s gonna catch up to me when we kiss

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written by Richie Kotzen

No such thing...

Music: Playlist “top rated”, now playing “No Such Thing” by Tommy Shaw

Mood: Pfffffff.. wwwwowie... bowsie-bow-wowsie... “Texas size heartache” (ha!) (+ toothache)

In my glass: Cabernet Sauvignon

Wondering if I can say, when I’m going to die, “I had a good and happy life. I’m ready to go.” Hm... I’m trying but not there yet. ...Well, but would one ever be there? There... where?

I have “been there, done that”... in a positive way ;) I have always listened to my heart.. except for “those particular” years :P.

And, I wonder, too, if anybody would miss me.

*Deep, big sigh*

I’m very much behind the schedule of my work.. due to a *small* miscalculation for the weekend.

Oh ya, the magic wand...

J. said, “Here I give you a magic wand but you can use it only once. What would be your wish?”

....Er... only once?? Hm.. I have 2 big wishes at the moment... But OK... One wish.. then it must be that D-thing. Because that is where it all ends AND begins (right?).

I’m working on it - maybe not fast enough... but I am. And when it’s over, we, the OM-girls, go to NYC to celebrate that! Hah, a wild plan.

There are moments that I don’t see any difference between “the safety-zone” and.. er.. let me put it for now “this danger-zone”. Ach, but what can I do?

“There’s no such thing as the perfect love”

Nothing is perfect in this world, me thinks.

But it’s not the tonight’s song. ...Some other time.

Bleh... it’s going to be a heavy week. I wonder how many hours I will have to sleep.

Song now playing: "River of Pain" by Thunder

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Tell Me Lover

(Vince Gill)

Tell me lover tell me what you're gonna do

You gonna walk the walk or just talk the talk

Honey what's up with you

Tell me lover tell me how it's gonna be

You gonna mess around or just turn me down

Honey won't you please tell me

Your good intentions ain't too good no more

You answer questions by slammin' that bedroom door

Come on baby let's turn the lamp down low

I'll solve your problems so honey please don't go

Tell me lover tell me what you're gonna do

You gonna walk the walk or just talk the talk

Honey what's up with you

Tell me lover tell me how it's gonna be

You gonna mess around or just turn me down

Honey won't you please tell me

If the silence could kill honey we'd both be dead

It ain't hard to tell we're hangin' on by a thread

Say somethin' darlin' say what's on your mind

We'll find the answer I got nothin' but time

Tell me lover tell me what you're gonna do

You gonna walk the walk or just talk the talk

Honey what's up with you

Tell me lover tell me how it's gonna be

You gonna mess around or just turn me down

Honey won't you please tell me

Tell me lover tell me how it's gonna be

You gonna mess around or just turn me down

Honey won't you please tell me

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written by Vince Gill (?)

I'm in...

HEAVEN.

IN THE 7TH HEAVEN.

Just because...

Music: Playlist “top rated”, right now playing “Home Is Where The Heart Is” by Lyn. Skyn.

Mood: Sweet... ...ya, I think so.

In my glass: Merlot

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:”)

..... Just because.

Music now playing: "Nothing Else Matters" by Metallica (ha, been a while!)

...”Make a wish...”

Music: Playlist P: now playing "Lagrimas de Oro" by Manu Chao

Mood: er... pfffff... still "yo-yo"ing

In my glass: Syrah

Kinda funny (er... no, not funny AT ALL) that he says that.

Well, I hope so..., I do. Although I should know by now it will not.

Hm..., ach,... I’m only wishing.