I Need You Tonight
Labels: I Need You Tonight
Labels: I Need You Tonight
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Pffff... I don't understand...
I haven't changesd anything.... but somehow the font and font sizes aren't the same as before...
Er... I'm too sleepy for this. Zzzz.....
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Music: “Joy To The World” by Three Dog Night
Mood: *sob-sob-sob*
In my glass: Cabernet Sauvignon
People say I’d better go out more, have fun, “meet a guy!”. Hahahah.... ;)
Well, I do go out - perhaps not often enough but I do whenever I can -, I do have friends to have fun with. Sure I do!
A., a good friend of mine, texted me the other day that he knew somebody for me. Ha!!
The story is.. that he was talking with a friend and they talked also about me (well, how it had come that way I’d never know!). Anyway, A. wrote that “we” should have a chat with each other once.
I warned A. alright that I was not really “available” (that in a couple of ways) and he said it was not a problem and, “just meet him, it’s alright”.
OK, so, it was my first ever blind date... or any kind of date then :P
I admit. There are times that I think: It would be *nicer* to wake up to find those arms around me.... than waking up in the empty bed finding that it was a dream.
But now it’s been “officially” and definitely confirmed as I actually already knew... Thank you, A., but I’d rather stay in my dreams - right, those arms aren’t there when I wake up, they will never be. .....Hm, OK, but that’s it then.
Er.... there was a song, I think, called “I’d rather be blind” or something... ?
It’s about something else, ya, right... And, oh well, I’m not blind or it’s not that I’m reluctant to look around.. I just don’t see...
I will keep my eyes open, though... ;) So, you people, keep your eyes open, too, for me, please! :D
BTW, I enjoyed the blind date very much, yes I did :)
Well, ...going out, meeting (new) people and having a good time... Yep, it’s true and people are right, I should do that more often. I will, when I come back.
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Music now playing: “Looking For Answers” by Susan Tedeschi
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...Aw... a “sob-sob-sob” song.
Not Too Much To Ask
(Mary-Chapin Carpenter)
To hear you say my name, to see you search my eyes
To feel you touch my hand, it more than satisfies.
If I was not the first, just say I'll be the last
It's too much to expect, but it's not too much to ask.
Now I can only dream of being all you need
And I can only try to be the reason why
You think about today and forget about the past
It's too much to expect, but it's not too much to ask.
Now I can only dream of being all you need
And I can only try to be the reason why
You think about today 'cause the past is just the past
It's too much to expect, but it doesn't hurt to ask
It's too much to expect, but it's not too much to ask.
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written by Mary-Chapin Carpenter/Don Schlitz
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oh, btw, it's been nice and sunny since he sent me the warm ray of sunshine... :)))))) Magic!
Labels: "Blind", "Not Too Much To Ask", magic
Music: mainly blues
Mood: .......
In my glass: had Côtes du Rhône earlier, now “tension tamer” tea
Last night - early this morning.... whatever... - I was finally in bed. Suddenly I thought: “I wish I had a home to come back to.” A place or somebody to “come back” to.
I guess I have been alone for just too long.
This morning: I come downstairs and find a post on the mat. An envelope with a grey poststamp on it.
L. past away last Friday. Oh no......
It was a couple of weeks ago when I visited L. and his wife. I was thinking of going to see them this week again.
...No... ...no.
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“I want to come home.
It's been so long since I've been away
And please, don't blame me 'cause I've tried
I'll be coming home soon to your love to stay
Coming home to stay
Coming home to your love, mama
I've seen better days...”
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(from “Comin’ Home”/Lynyrd Skynyrd, written by Allen Collins, Ronnie van Zant)
Labels: Comin' Home, L.
Music: playlist “25 most played”, right now “So Sad Today”/Thunder
Mood: confusion, chaos, desperation... all those kinds of things
In my glass: Merlot
Been trying to write emails to friends for hours now. But all I do is just staring at the computer screen. I just don’t know where to start... OK, tomorrow.. or anyway, this weekend I will. For now, I give up.
It took such a long while - but I finally know which way I would like to go... I mean, I thought I knew - well, vaguely. So, I started to make a plan for my first step.
But then - this bad news came. Ah, ok, that’s life. Right now there’s only one thing I should do. Hm, what about my plans? *Sigh* OK, they were not clear yet anyway. Can they wait? I don’t know. Honestly, I don’t think so. I’ll have to see.
One week has already past since the news and I haven’t done anything. I have so many things to do, to have arranged, to get done before I leave. And I would not know how :(
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These lyrics keep running in my head today. The song is not even a fave of mine - it was not at that time anyway.
Hm... perhaps it (and all this) is the voice from above that I should stop dreaming.
“I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try
But that was just a dream
Try, cry, why try?
That was just a dream
Just a dream, just a dream
Dream...”
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from “Losing My Religion"/R.E.M, written by Berry/Buck/Mills/Stipe
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Music now playing (still the same playlist): “Fooled Again”/Richie Kotzen
Labels: just a dream, Losing My Religion