Slowly but steadily... (3)

Music: J.J. Cale, right now playing “Don’t Cry Sister”

Mood: ...erm... ...hm...

In my glass: Coteaux du Languedoc  (left-over from last night)

On no, it’s already February!

Time flies when you’re having fun.... or not.  It has been sooooo hectic since my last update.  And, it is not “slowly” or “steadily” at all.  

Well, ok.. I have to try to write down what comes to my mind... just randomly. 

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New Year, new place... certainly, yes!  New me?  Probably yes.  But I’m not so sure.  It feels more like getting back “my old self”.  But then... that “old self” must have been lost for very long time.. like a few decades.  

Or... it’s a mix of my old self and a brand new me.  Oh yes, that’s it.  

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New place.  Just love my new place.  A small, one room apartment.  In a great area.  

My old house was.. ok.  It’s a perfect house for a family.  With 4 bedrooms (one in the basement included) and a small garden (with my roses!).  But to me, it was full of emptiness.  Without my Gang, it was nothing but a big empty space with shadowy ghosts from the past flying around.   It felt like a prison.

Now in my new place - my little castle! - I don’t see any ghosts.  Hm, no... it’s not very organized yet, I have too much stuff and it is a small place... Oh but, who cares?  I live here, it’s my place!  (Hm.. well, wish it was less expensive, though...)

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Trying to go for a walk every day... if not, just as often as I can, at least 3 times a week... with my cam.  Oh, but in this area, I enjoy a walk even to a supermarket...  Then I think: “I could walk a bit further up...”.  I often come across people I know and make some chats.. Nice :)

A photo from today's walk:


I'm going to check this place soon ;)

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Setbacks and rejections... they just happen sometimes.  They just do.

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This, I’m not very sure about.. but friends say I’m “strong”.  Strong enough to make choices.  Hm... well, maybe.  True, I always did, I always made my choices in my life.  But-er.... that’s what everybody does.    

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I love surprises :))  

Been sort of waiting for a surprise but it is not very much likely to happen.... Haha, well, perhaps I should go for a walk even more often.  

Oh well... a surprise doesn’t happen when you are waiting for it,... right?  Otherwise it wouldn’t be a surprise ;)

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I love smiles, too.  :)))

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But if I’m honest... I don’t know what I’m doing. 

Why am I here? 

Pfff...  it’s tough.  Well, I’m not giving up my plan.  I had to postpone it.  It’s only a slight delay.  

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Music now playing; “Nights Are Forever Without You”/England Dan and John Ford Coley

(...and now “Your Entertainer”/RK)

Where there’s a will, ....

Music: Playlist “P3”, right now playing “Fooled Again”/RK

Mood: Upwards

In my glass: Nero d’Avola

I made a list of my plans... or wishes.. or dreams....  whatever.  It does help, indeed, to write down all those vague ideas and thoughts.  I’m now one step ahead.  Or, it feels like I’m now one step - a tiny little baby step - closer to my goal ;)

It’s a “new me”.  Open to possibilities.  

I used to say: “No, it’s too hard.  It’s impossible.  I just can’t make it”.

Now I (try to) say: “OK, it’s hard but how and why?  What’s the problem?  How can I fix it?  What can I do to make it happen?    How do I get there?  

I know, of course, that I can’t rule the world.  

But the thing is...

“It's no dream unless you leave it only in the mind.“ 

Thank you, M. & R. for the good vibes!

“Where there’s a will, there’s a way”.

Hm... It’s going to be a long and rocky way.  But-but-but... let me try and see how close I can get to my goal.  

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My goal:  

Honestly, I don’t know what my “goal” is.  I only have this “to do/wish” list.  

Oh well, ...

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There are more “new mes”.  But that’s for another time.

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Music now playing: “A Song For You”/Leon Russell