Music: various (right now Rascal Flatts’ album “Me And My Gang”)
Mood: calm
In my glass: just finished my daily coffee
Oh my gosh, time does fly!
It’s been another year on the rollercoaster with bends, ups and downs.
Er… ups? Hm, I don’t remember any. But, oh, downs, yes, so many! :(
Uh-uh, wait there! No ups? Really? That’s not true, think again!
A. said last night:
“That’s only what you think. Maybe you don’t feel that way but you have done a lot to make changes for the better. Try to look at your life more objectively.”
She’s right. I tend to focus on the negativity. On things that go wrong, that don’t work out, something I do wrong or I’m not good at. I then forget all those other things that go well, that turn out to be alright, things I can manage. I keep forgetting that there are good times and there are nice things - lots of nice things in life.
Yup, that will be my mantra for coming days :)
In fact, I’ve been seriously tackling my anxiety/phobias and the “sombreness” (er… okay, let’s face it, “depression”) - since Autumn last year. When I look back at then - yes, I do see a big progress. :)
With therapies & courses and my lovely friends’ help, I’ve come really far!!
January-March
I took part in a Mindfulness course. Mindfulness helps me to cope with anxiety, to see/take things as they are.
April
I started practising yoga at home. Thank you very much, YouTube! ;) My most favourite channel is "
YogaWithAdriene”. I do watch other channels, too, but
YWA is the one that motivates me the most and makes me feel “yay!”. I also did 2 “challenges” with her vids. Since then, I practise yoga everyday (!) - usually twice. Ha!
I meditate since April, too. Well, I’m not sure if I should call it “meditation” - what I do is to sit still for a short while (15 minutes or so), breathing “mindfully”. Sometimes only counting my breaths. Other times I repeat a mantra in my head. It’s not very easy to get myself to concentrate on my breath or mantra. …Hm… I need more practice ;)
September
New “Portraiture study group”. Hm…. I don’t know… Now, almost 3 months later, I don’t have any good photo yet. :’(
Next year, …which begins next week already!
I want to (try to) find “my place”. This tiny apartment is not truly “my place”. I don’t mind if it’s small but I want it to be “my place” - I don’t mean to “own” a house or a flat. I want to feel at home - with my own things around me. My own furniture. My photos on the wall.
But most of all, I want to find my home in myself - in my heart.
Be more “mindful” to notice “nice-things-in-life”.
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Alrighty… it’s yogatime now :)
I’m late - as always - but better late than never, right?
I wish everybody love, hope, peace and all the “nice” things in life - like hugs and smiles :))
Happy Holidays!
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Music now playing: “Come Saturday Morning” by Rumer
Mood: uplifting :)
In my cup: herbal tea “Bright Mood”
(It's been hours since I started to write this entry. That's why this update ;) )
Labels: Christmas, Happy Holidays, nice things in life, Xmas