Oh, hello 2016...

Music: “70’s Dance Party” (“Gees, you must be kidding, Kym!” “Um… nope. I quite like it”)

Mood: Joyful

In my glass: bubbly :)

Happy New Year!! 

Some thoughts in the first hours of 2016.

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2015 was to me personally a year of….

Confusion, frustration and discovery.  About myself and what is happening around/to me.

Confusion, frustration, fear, setbacks, disappointment… 

BUT… I had lots of joy and fun, too.  Met many people, made new friends.  Learned a lot (especially about myself). 

It was, after all, a good year for sure.     

And 2016…. 

I have no idea. Hopefully it’s going to be a year of change.  

“Impermanence”… or “This too will pass”.  Good or bad, things change.  But of course, “change for a better” hopefully.

Um… but still, I have no idea, no expectations.  

I take one step at a time.  

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Words for the New Year.

Smile.

Live.

Love.

Enjoy.

Acknowledge.

Give.

Accept.

Embrace.

Be.

Walk.

Peace.

Kindness. 

Communication.

Forward.

Fresh.

Relax.

Excellent. 

What?

Whatever.

Jump.

Hm.

Bend.

New.

Ach.

Gratitude.

Anxiety (yup, that too).

Explore.

Fun.

Erm… 

Dare.

Kitty.

……..

(and more)

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Things go wrong sometimes. 
That’s the nature.  Don’t be disappointed.  Make most of it. 

It’s OK to be imperfect.  That’s the nature. The imperfection also is an important piece of the puzzle.

There is no such thing as a wrong decision or wrong choice.
It only might (or might not, who knows) lead to a different outcome.  You make a decision/choice and you go for it and work on it.

It’s totally alright to feel *%#^&&$%@±!!!!!!!!!!!!* now and then.
Don’t deny or resist it but feel it, welcome it, embrace it, understand it.  It means you are alive.  Give a big hug to it. 

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Hm….. all that said… Hm… yeah…   …enough pep talk to myself….

Cheers!!!

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Enjoy the journey.  Yes, I will. :)

Smile

Music: Playlist “Top rated”, now playing “That’s How I Like It”/Lynyrd Skynyrd

Mood: &%(@%~+%!!!!

In my glass: Shiraz Cabernet

Here I have a photo.

In this photo, how come I don’t know, but, sometimes he looks smiling, sometimes not.  Perhaps it’s me; it might be reflecting how I feel.  Tonight.. he’s not smiling.

Hm... I should cheer up myself then.. cos I want to see him smiling.   

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Music now playing: “Ready For Love”/Bad Company

Dreams

Music: “Re-Foc” by Rodrigo y Gabriela
Mood: mixed
In my glass: just finished rooibos tea, switching over to Malbec/Bonarda.

Dream your dreams, Kymdot.  In the land of dreams, everything is possible. Anything.  You can do anything you want to; nothing is strange, everything is doable.  So, live (in) your dream to the max.  Be sure to do everything and all you want to do.  And try to remember that dream as much as you can.  And... Promise you don’t be sorry, don't feel sad when you wake up.  But smile to the beautiful dream.

OR...  If you try and dream hard, it might come true... ...Who knows?

:))) 


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oh yes... Suzi was/is my heroine.  I remember.. I was at the hairdresser's and asked for "a do like Suzi's".  The hairdresser didn't know exactly what it was :(

She’s In Love With You

(Suzi Quatro)

She's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you down, she'll never fool around
'Cos she's in love with you

So if you see her all alone one night, 

  walk up to her discreetly, ask her why
And if she replies with words that don't make sense, 

  it may be just because she's shy
Don't take advantage of her lack of understanding 

  just because you think you could
Treat her right, treat her good, take her home 

  and make her feel the way she should

'Cos she's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you down, she'll never fool around
'Cos she's in love with you
She's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you go, she may not let you know, 
  but she's in love with you

So if you happen to be out one night 

  and someone asks you where you're gonna go
Just remember she's not like the other girls, 

  she may not want them all to know
Though she may need a little time, 

  she never wants to stand in line the way they would
So treat her nice, treat her good, treat her like you know you should
You may never find another girl like her

'Cos she's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you down, she'll never fool around
'Cos she's in love with you
She's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you go, she may not let you know, 
  but she's in love with you

So take her home and hold her close, 

  touch her where she feels it most, but be true
And when she's making love to you, she'll do what you want her to
Treat her good, treat her like you know you should
You may never find another girl like her

'Cos she's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you down, she'll never fool around
'Cos she's in love with you
She's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you go, she may not let you know, 
  but she's in love with you
She's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you down, she may not let you know, 
  but she's in love with you
'Cos she's in love with you, that's all she wants to do
She'll never let you down, she'll never fool around
'Cos she's in love with you

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written by Mike Chapman/Nicky Chinn

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Music now playing: “Top25”, right now “I Promise I Will” by Wilson Hawk

Departure

Music: Playlist “Top rated”, right now playing SRV songs (“Hug You, Squeeze You”)

Mood: (...lemmethink...)

In my glass: Cabernet Shiraz

...OK, so.. where was I?

Oops, I see I haven’t written anything for more than a month!  Ya... right... 

This blog - it’s nothing but some useless notes and mumbles to myself... Nothing important or interesting.  But it helps me to “think”.  To sort and “file” my thoughts.  To know and deal with my emotions... well, not always and not very much... but it does help in a way.  And, as it’s “public”, I also try not to make it too “private”.  “Personal but not private”, that’s an important rule of a blog, I read somewhere.  

But anyway...

It’s already a new year.  A whole month has past already.  How time flies!  

And that’s exactly the point right now... Time passes too fast.  I’m left behind.  All alone.  In the dark.  

.....Hm... not really "up-lifting" as the first post of the new year.

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Niece brought a bunch of sweet pea flowers for my mom.  A pretty bouquet.  I took a couple of photos of it and the above is my mom's favourite. 

I looked up the flower language of the sweet pea:

“Good-bye”, “departure”, “delicate”, “blissful pleasure”.  

I’d give my mom the last one.  I want her to enjoy the moments.  Moments of blissful pleasure.

And.. the first two, “good-bye” and “departure”, are for me.  In a positive way.  I’m going to keep them in mind for later this year.

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“There are beautiful things happening in my life daily."  

I’m going to remember that, too, this year.  I mean, to be aware of that.  Just one small “smile“ is beautiful enough.  ...It’s like... one small beautiful happening would make up for 100 bad happenings. 

Yep, that’s the spirit, Kym.!

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And yes, I had a “smile” today!  :)

Yay!

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Music now playing: “Come On” by SRV