Deadly…

Music: Playlist 150707 (right now “Love Worth Dying For”/ Thunder)
Mood: desperate
In my glass: French red (Minervois)

I’ve got so many things to do… regular work, bookkeeping, homework, emailing/calling back, cleaning/clearing up, all the other odd work… But I can’t even get started.

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“You can’t miss what you never had…” (…I think it’s a line of one of Tommy Shaw’s songs… but I can’t remember which song..)
True, true… but strangely, I miss him. I do… deadly.

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It’s Wintertime again… Yeeppieee!! Ha! It’s so dark here in wintertime; still I like the crisp cold (preferably with clear blue sky and the bright shining Sun) winter better than the hot, sticky and wet summer. I love my thick, warm hand-knitted sweaters :)

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Music now playing: “Hole in My Sole”/The Jones Gang

Superwoman

Music: Playlist 150707 (right now playing: “Where You Going Now”/Damn Yankees)
Mood: nearly crashed
In my glass: hhmmm should I? It’s 5:45 in the morning… well, why not?! Who cares? So, just poured in French red.

Pagemaker crashed. The Printer stopped working. Hahahaha…. Can’t be true… hope it’s only a nightmare…
Ok, the Pagemaker crashes so often that I don’t panic any more. Just close down the programme and turn off the puter and start it all over again. Simple. But-er… the printer is another story. It has happened once before, yeah, right. And, I remember, I then managed to repair it. So, why not this time? Kym., don’t panic, you can do it again. Ha! I’m a superwoman, I can do anything (well, almost), I can do magic.

And now, the printer is working better than ever.
Grrrrrr….. I’m so tired and sleepy.

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Now playing: “Robert Johnson’s Tombstone”/Thunder

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Superwoman - Printer Repairwoman

Plan

Music: Playlist “Thunder and Co.” (right now playing: “Living for Today”/Thunder)
Mood : still down but slightly upwards…
In my glass: French red

YAY!
1) taken care of (Thanks, Von!!)
2) purchased (confirmed)
3) booked (confirmed)
4) booked (confirmed)

hmmm… 2) and 3) can be still a problem…. It’s all because of my own stupid fault. Hopefully all ok but-er… I’ll see.

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I’m soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired today and things go wrong. L. called if I wanted to come to see his gig – I was going to but.. just couldn’t make it. :(

…can’t think of a title…

Music: Playlist "Thunder and Co. " (right now “Gypsy Lane”/The Jones Gang)
Mood: down and discouraged
In my glass: French red

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.....
Who is gonna catch me when I fall?
Who is gonna, who is gonna,
Who is gonna catch me when I fall?
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(Gypsy Lane/written by Hart/Jones)

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I do admit there are times and days I wish there was somebody home waiting for me, to say “Hi, darling, how’s everything?” And if I’d say “Wrong, everything’s wrong, all wrong!”, then he’d say, “aaahh, gonna be fine, you’re fine!”
Hhmmm… and of course, wish this “he” was the “he”.

Fox doesn’t even notice when I come home.

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The lesson No. 4 tonight. …I don’t understand a thing, I can’t follow the class :(
I don’t think I can manage to take those photos for homework #2. --- It was so, so, so very much discouraging tonight.

It was cold outside.

DO!

Music: Playlist 150707 (right now: “I Don’t Feel Like Dancin’”/Scissor Sisters)
Mood: up and down, up and down, down and up….
In my glass: just had mint tea. Going to open a French red.

Pffffff… been a heavy week with little sleep and a serious headache. I really had to have a nap this afternoon… thought: “just for an hour or so….”. Ahem, I have had a good 4 hour sleep on the couch!

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I ditched my old anti virus software. First I couldn’t use “Organizr” on Flickr because of it, then it blocked one of my email accounts, then also a feature of other account.. And this week, I couldn’t open emails on any of my webmail accounts, either! As the subscription was about to expire in a few days, it was not very hard to decide to choose something else. Now, everything seems to be working alright… so far.

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A friend of mine called and told me that she had a kind of tumour in her head. It’s a benign one (thank God!) and can be removed without problems. She’s now waiting for the date of the surgery to be fixed.
I remember she told me the last time I saw her, that she had not been feeling very well for some time. She had had many tests done but doctors couldn’t find anything. Now she’s relieved that they finally could tell her what was wrong.

I hope she’s going to be fine again very soon.
It has also got me thinking.. and I gave myself the final answer on the “to do or not to do” question. Heheheheeheeeeheeeee… “DO!”

I couldn’t afford it actually.. but I thought I could give me a belated birthday present… Oh, wait a sec, the Nikon was meant to be the belated B-day present – ok, then a Christmas present in advance… Yeah, that’s it!

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Had an extra class this morning: a brief introduction to Photoshop. I found out that I wasn’t the only one who’s not very familiar with it. Phew…. And I’m still not.

I’m not finished with my homework yet… honestly, I haven’t even started yet. Yewww… Well, I have tried, yes, I have! Hhmm.. there’s only one day left and I still have to find a volunteer to help me. :(

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The tune now playing: “Living for Today”/Thunder

The Question

Music: Playlist 150707 – I added Thelonious Monk and more to the list today. Now playing “Off Minor”/Thelonious Monk
Mood: “mmmmmmmmmmmhhh… ?????”
In my glass: French red

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“To be or not to be, that is the question…”

hahaha,….
It’s now for me:
“TO DO OR NOT TO DO, that is the question”

I have had this question a few times till now... And my answer was always: “Do, do, do, do, do, do….”

….
Hm…. Am still thinking now.
…”Shoud I? Could I? Would I? Why not? …..Will I? …Shall I? ……”

…
The song now playing is: “A Million Faces”/Thunder.

Sasha

Music: Playlist 150707, right now playing “Blame It on a Sad Song”/Lynyrd Skynyrd
Mood: *smiling*
In my glass: French red

M. has found a photo of Sasha for me on the internet :) Thanks, M!
Oh, wow… so, he’s still playing – or anyway has got something to do with – volleyball. Ha!... I don’t think he remembers me – no, don’t think he’s aware of having changed my life drastically… Wish I could reach him now and tell him what and how and everything :)

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Bought a new bike yesterday. I was really sick and tired of pumping the tyre every time, worrying if I could make it to the shopping mall. Well, I could have tried to mend the tube once again… but there were just so many things that were broken or damaged or… anyway not safe.
The past couple of months, I stopped at the shop to look at the bike so many times. It’s now for almost 50% off - ha, I don’t believe that for 100%... but, ok..
The wheels are a bit too big for me (28in) but I don’t mind that now. It’s a type “granny’s bike” (I wonder why it’s called that), which I always wanted. It’s got pink flower and “space invader” decoration on it (a strange combination, isn’t it?) – I quite like it.

Pffff… I’m now really, truly, totally broke!

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Received the report on the first photo assignment by e-mail.
:) (got “sufficient”)

A girl in love

Music: Playlist “Thunder & Co.”. Right now playing: “Dirty Dream”/Thunder
Mood: mixed
In my glass: French red

Made me smile today:
On the young readers’ page of the TV guide, there was a letter from a “14 year old girl (in love)”. She writes she’s in love with Daniel “Harry Potter” Radcliffe. Her friends say that she’s only a “big fan” of Daniel… But, uh-uh… nonono, she’s very serious. She does have a boyfriend, who’s very nice and sweet. She does love her boyfriend, she writes, but isn’t in love with him “any more”. She can’t stop thinking about Daniel, she watches his movies nearly every day. She knows well that Daniel is unreachable for her. Still, she doesn’t know what to do about this.

My advice to her would be:
Well, there’s nothing wrong about it. As long as you are happy and are not bothering him and others with it. If it makes you feel sad and unhappy, then it’s probably not right. The most important is that you feel good with it.

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Ok, ok… I’m only talking to myself.

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A Woman In Love
(Joan Armatrading)

When the morning comes
Like shifting sands
In a desert storm
Like a raging fire
Heats up the big sky baby
Your love is pure and strong
Chained to your heart I surrender
Here’s where I belong

And if I get emotional and I’m restless
You’re like a soothing ray of light
Bring me to my senses in a heartbeat Darling
Hold me tender in the night

Tell me what miracles are made of
Like sweet soft morning dew
How can I ever show you baby
How can I prove it all to you

That I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love.

I get so mixed up and tongue tied
I can hardly say my name
Bring me to my senses in a heartbeat Darling
Hold me tender in the night

Cos I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love.

Never thought this would
Never thought this would
Never thought this would happen to me

Never thought this would
Never thought this would
Never thought this would happen to me

I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love
I’m a woman in love

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written by Joan Armatrading

Concentration costs a lot of energy…

Music: right now playing “Thrill of It All”/Thunder
Mood: ….hhmmmmm…..
In my glass: Primitivo

I think I used up all my concentration ability in the class last night: it was about exposure/lighting – how to measure the lighting and how to choose the best possible exposure. I really had to listen very, very carefully to follow the lesson.
When I got home I was so tired and… hungry!!!

I still don’t know for sure.. I have to read the book again and again.. and again. I wonder if I can learn all these basics in a year… (and the rest in 4 years). ...I doubt.