So,...

Music: playlist 131106 (Texas Gold, Thunder, Van Zant, Venice, RascalM etc.)
Mood: neutral
In my glass: (just about to pour in) Primitivo

…So, ok… it’s been such a long time since my last post. I have been having a hard time to get back to my daily routine. It is often like this after a vacation but this time even harder.

It was really a last minute decision to join the boys for this “across the USA” trip. We were with 3 of us and each one of us had a mission. Mine was to think “what” and “how”. I know now one thing: what I would not like. But then, that’s about it. I’m still thinking.

Another thing: I’m in a way very relaxed since I’m back. Maybe too relaxed… I don’t care or worry much. I should, perhaps, because nothing has really changed. There are still problems to be solved and things to be settled. Well, ok, I’ll think about that, too… eventually.

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I finished the Icelandic book (“101 Reykjavik”) last Saturday. A story about a thirty-something guy, unemployed and (sexually) frustrated. It’s hilarious, cynical and sometimes absurd. I liked the style (I read it in Dutch); I could hear him mumbling. I also liked how it ended. Nothing dramatic - well, after some dramatic happenings and events to him, he has changed of course, but he and his mother and her (yes, his mother’s) girlfriend just go on with their lives.

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I started a new book yesterday. A book I got from a friend a few years ago. It was still in one of the boxes of my bedroom stuff. Hhm, there are still some boxes to be unpacked since the “bed room project”. Anyway, she gave me this book shortly after we (me and R.) broke up. I remember I was not really “ready” to read (and laugh and enjoy) this book yet. Oh, it’s Synthia Heimel’s “Sex Tips For Girls” (hahahaha!!). Gees, would I ever...? Oh, well, just in case… you never know.

There are things I can recognize like:

“…My day.
11:30 a.m. Wake up. Realize I don’t have a boyfriend. Go back to bed again.
…”

or

“More ways to tell if you are in love:
(……….)
- If you feel smarter, prettier, funnier and happier when you’re with him.
(……….)"

Hmm.. I was feeling so dumb, ugly, boring, unhappy when I was with R. (at least, the last few years). I’m not saying I feel now much different - no I don’t (I’m not in love right now, that’s why, probably). Well, ok.. maybe a little smarter.. prettier … funnier…happier.... juuust a little bit (hehehe).

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Since the TransAm trip, I want to spend more time for myself, to do something for myself. I found some recipes I’d like to try. I saw a few nice shirts in the sewing magazine. Maybe I’d sweep all those fallen leaves in between…



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