Thinking

Music: various - at this moment:"Bad Reputation" from "Don't Tread"/Damn Yankees
Mood: mixed

Thinking too much again, while I know I should not be.

What should I do? What do I want? Where would I go? What? How? How long? What if? What if not? Is this good? Is that alright? Which one? What way? Would they? When? Where? What? Why? Why not? Should I? Is it? Yes? No? And then? What would they think? What does it mean? Is he doing alright? …..

I just can’t help asking and thinking… and it’s not good. The more I think, the more I worry. Gees, it’s still August… how should it be when the cold and dark winter comes??

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I Am a Rock
(Simon & Garfunkel)

A winter’s day
In a deep and dark December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I’ve built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It’s laughter and it’s loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

Don’t talk of love,
But I’ve heard the words before;
It’s sleeping in my memory.
I won’t disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.

And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.

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