Random notes

Music: Playlist “Top rated”, right now playing “Hummingbird” by Leon Russell

Mood: negative

In my glass: Merlot

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One war has ended.  Who won?  Nobody.  At least, that’s what I think.  Oh well, it was not my war anyway.

I have my own war - if I should call it a war - but it has not started yet.  Erm... well, okay, it depends how I look at it.  In a way, it’s been going on for more than 10 years already and it has to end some day... hopefully soon.

Anyway, I’m a cat person.  I don’t like wars or conflicts... or any trouble at all.

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Mrs. M. came along last night, and said: “Girl, you should not be home alone.  It’s not good for you.  You should have fun!”

A lovely lady, this Mrs. M.  :)

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A friend said to me many years ago: “You’d better not wait too long.  Before you know it, you’re 80.”  

I said to her: “I’m not waiting.  It just does not happen.”

Now, something like 9 years later, it’s still not happening, so it seems.  I mean, it did.  It has happened... but...  no.  It takes two to tango (or rumba... or whatever...) after all. 

Hm... before long I’m 80.  How nice... (not)!

:s 

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Auntie came over and stayed the night again.  She likes my cooking, btw :)

We talked about lots of things again... like... 

I said: “I wonder if my mom has ever been in love so so so very passionately and devotedly... like losing herself in love with somebody.  I wonder if she knows that feeling...”

Auntie said: “hm...  I don’t remember she ever was.  I wonder, too.”

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Been to a karaoke bar a couple of times now.

“Sing as if nobody’s listening.”

Yep, that’s the spirit!  You are the star!!  I am the star!!!!!

And, you just don’t mind the others singing (out of tune).  

Yep, that’s the spirit.

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It feels like.... I lost my way.

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Today... I’m trying to think positive... without success. 

Asking myself if I’m happy, if I’m feeling good.  

It depends how I look at it, yes... it’s all how you look at it, how you see it.

I’m... fine.  

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I bought a notebook for Mom.

“Write about anything that came to your mind, anything you want, - just a few lines, a few words.. a word.”

Yesterday I saw she had written a couple pages full.  She is not writing a real story.  She’s taking only short notes but it’s alright.  

Ah... right, I’m carrying a small notebook with me, I just remembered.  That pink notebook!  I think I’m going to take notes, too... Haven’t done that since.. since.. a few months.  

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...Ooops...  I’ve still got some work to do :(

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Music now playing: “Play That Funky Music” by Thunder