Season’s Greetings to you!

Music: Playlist 150707 + “Going Dutch” + “Winter Rose”/OL + “Christmas”/Bruce Cockburn
Mood: …a bit of frustration…., trying to feel Christmassy, though….
In my glass: French red

Sorry, my friends, I’m very late for Season’s greetings this year (even later than ever!!). But it doesn’t mean that I’m not thinking of you. You are always on my mind.
Here is my very short message to wish you all a warm and happy Holiday season. May it be filled with love and smiles.

---------------------

I never celebrate Christmas… To me it’s something typical “family-thing” – and I don’t have that here really. Besides, I find it becoming too commercial and too exclusive. Not to mention all that cannibalism.
BUT – this year.. I kinda “miss” Christmas. …Well, ok, what I miss is that “Christmassy intimacy”, I think, and it’s for the first time that I miss it. It’s perhaps because of those stars above – I see them there glittering but not the other way round.
When S. asked if I wanted to have a Christmas dinner together, I said “yes”.

---------------------

The biggest blunder of this year… I wrote a letter (…hm, ok, it’s more like a very short note than a letter) but it’s still here.. has never been posted.. or whatever. I just didn’t dare to…er to get it read. I know… it’s the matter of either “Aaaggghh… why didn’t I do it??” or “Aaaggghh… why did I do it?”. In either case, I’d hate myself for (not) having done it. Yes, now I hate myself for not having done it. AARRRGGHHHHRRR.

... :( ...



---------------------

All Because of You
(Diesel)

I’m scared to be alone at night
With darkness all around
My hair is standin’ up in fright
If I don’t hear a sound
My fear of heights, my fear of crowds
Of open spaces too
Don’t match my fear to say aloud
That I’m in love with you

I’m a little bit dizzy
Not a little bit scared
Yes I’m a little bit dizzy
Girl it’s all because of you

My life is full of emptiness
My ears are filled with tears
My house became a filthy mess
I haven’t slept for years
The letter written overnight
I’m burnin’ in the morn
Her perfect hat is now in sight
I’m drawin’ in my horns

I’m a little bit dizzy
Not a little bit scared
Yes I’m a little bit dizzy
Because of you, because of you

Fear is growin’ bigger
Room is gettin’ small
Got my thumbs on the trigger
Because of you, because of you

I’m a little bit dizzy
Not a little bit scared
Yes I’m a little bit dizzy
Girl it’s all because of you

The letter written overnight
I haven’t slept for years
I’m scared to be alone at night
My eyes are filled with tears
My life is full of emptiness
Of open spaces too
The letter written in a mess
It’s all because of you

I’m a little bit dizzy
Not a little bit scared
Yes I’m a little bit dizzy
Girl it’s all because of you

---------------------
written by Boon/Vunderink