LET GO!!!

Music: Play list “most played”, right now “Fooled Again” by RK (with headphones on -at max vol - and on repeat mode... go figure.. :s)

Mood: empty

In my glass: Tempranillo

Today’s score: 6/10 (I have my work done)

...Feeling exhausted and empty as always on Thursdays

Been working hard. Thinking, wondering, worrying, sobbing... all hard, too. So.... I think I have deserved this nice glass of Tempranillo very well.

I miss the time that I could get “drunk”, could “let go”. No worries about what I must do the next day. *Those were the times* that I suddenly had that big “lump” on my forehead or that nasty cuts on my knees but didn’t remember how all that had happened.

It’s just... I cannot get “drunk” as I’d like to. I’ve got to meet the deadline or finish this or that or... got to walk Fox, my boy,... Would be *nice* to forget everything, let all the worries *go* for a moment.. and then close my eyes, let myself “fall”. Er... ya, of course, there should be the strong arms there to catch me.

*SIGH*

... am going to pour another glass. I won’t get drunk - or even tipsy - anyway....

Oh but it tastes good... I haven’t had that for days!!! :)

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The tune now playing: “Catch Up To Me” by RK. Oy, .... it sure did... it has. :'( :"(